The Anti-Conflicts World

2010-11-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

世界上最善良的人

6月15日2010年，少女时代成员，Tiffany 本名 Stephanie Hwang Mi young 황미영..
已在韩国住了6年.. 所以今天是她庆祝自己在韩国住了6.. but she is injured today ZZZ..

她从5岁就失去了妈妈..
从小由爸爸一手带大..
有一个大她8岁的姐姐(Michelle)..
和一个大她1岁的哥哥(Leo)..

15岁的时候..
不顾爸爸的反对..
硬坚持要到韩国完成自己想当歌手的梦想..
一个人从LA飞到韩国..
在一个人生地不熟的地方展开了她的星路之旅..

在培训3年.. 已少女时代的女子组合出道..
星路旅程是不好走的..
2007年出道..
2008年 anti-fans 波涛汹涌的涌上岸..
对一个从小就在外国长大的她，的确是个非常大的挑战..
因为对文化的陌生和语法的障碍..
阻止了她想表明的所有的一切..
不知道的人，都对她产生了误会与误解..
不过开朗又positive的她还是跨过了这个难关..

SNSD休息9个月后 (2009年)..
以主打歌《Gee》从新出发..
创下纪录，当了K-chart 的9连霸霸主..

可是在《Gee》的宣传期.. 因为不小心，从楼梯跌倒弄伤了脚踝..
爱表演又爱舞台的她，迫不及待，希望自己快点复原与团友们一起表演..
即使交抱着石膏，她还是上电视台表演..

同一年，在宣传《소워을 말헤봐》时..
她被证实了声带受损..
所有已有一段时间，是一对嘴来表演的..
清澈干净的嗓音就这样消失了..
不过乐观的她，利用自己有点沙哑的声音为自己塑造了较女人味的形象..
乖乖的接受治疗..

2010年 - 《Oh!》
才comeback.. 就在节目上弄伤了手..
4月中时，因为声带又恶化.. 紧急送入治疗..
8月份，SM Town concert 2010..
在表要《소워을 말헤봐》时，因为踩到cake cream而滑到..
又在扭伤脚踝.. 不过，她坚持把那首歌唱完才被送入医院..
10月份，以受让我觉得很感动得个出现了..
她为Haru演唱的OST 《Ring》..
声音没有当年的清澈.. 不过，真的很感动！
她进步了很多.. 我想到，一个曾经有声带受损的人..
还能拥有这样的声音.. 还能唱出这样的感动.. 我真的无话可说..
Surprise Comeback.. 《Hoot》..
我非常开心.. 因为范妮姐姐的声音回来了..

最后，她真的是个很善良很讨人喜欢的人..
非常尊重长辈与先辈..
对晚辈与dongseng疼爱有加..
事事都为团员着想..
为团员祈祷..
利用自己乐观有开朗的性格，给周遭的人带来了不少欢乐..
未受伤和被遗弃的狗儿哭泣..
非常珍惜粉丝.. 对粉丝也超好..
最重要的是.. 不管做什么事，他都很用功很用心的做..
我很崇拜她.. 不过她又受伤了..
希望他早日康复！

my dear fany unnie please get well soon!
Happy 6th anniversary in korea!!
love you lots!! Fighting!! All the best!!
AND god bless!! PLEASE take good care of yourself!!
Love Love!!

2010-10-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

为什么要这样子呢??

你告诉我了.. 我说清楚了..
我道歉了.. 你说没关系的..
你说还是朋友的.. 我说当然的..
以为一切都会ok的..

可是，为什么你会这样..

该逃避、该避开的认识我..
可是为什么是你..
是因为你忘不了，所以你选者逃避吗??
这样做有用吗??

你是要我愧疚、内疚吗??
我承认我会..
可是你需要让自己那么低沉、那么多弱吗??

没想到你是那么脆弱的..

辛苦的话，能找我说话..
我们可以再讲得跟清楚一点..
不想见到我，可以告诉我..
我可以不出现在你面前..
不过，若你选择逃避，问题永远是解决不了的..
如果，你选择恨我，也随便你..

因为不想伤害你，所以做出这样的选择..

2010-10-10T21:24:00.001+08:00

REVIVE!!

OMG.. haven been posting for months..ZZZ
almost dead.. but just by to revive it.. will update soon:)

2010-07-01T19:46:00.002+08:00

一切都是我的错

本来还以为自己忘记了..
本来还以为自己不在乎了..
本来还以为自己不爱了..

但一切的一切都是虚构的..
伪装的、不敢面对的、逃避的..
从头到尾，都没让你在我的记忆里做个了结..

现在遇到了一个很不错的人..
虽然和你比起来有蛮大的差别..
但他真的是一个很好的人..
我不想伤害他..

不过我真的很想知道你的反应..
很想知道你的想法..
虽然过了这么多年..
但有时之中我最在乎的人还是你..

我该怎么办..
depress..

最怀念的，还是你弹的那首canon in D..

2010-04-03T21:27:00.001+08:00

心凉得都快麻了

每次看到你的照片..
听到你的声音..
都让我的心凉了一下..
痛了在痛..
心里真的在挣扎着..
充满了太多的矛盾..
让我第一次拿不定主义..

挣扎了这么多年..
真感到很压力..
再强的的建筑，也会有倒塌的时候..
我还能支撑多久？？..
我也不知道..
只知道，自己不能倒下..
但，自己真的累了..

2010-03-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

不要妄想攻入我的世界

不要说你了解我..
因为有时候，我也不了解我自己..
我不喜欢被人侵略..
不喜欢人家太懂我..
因为，当一个人了解你，他很快就会找出你破绽和脆弱的按钮..

除非，是我自己把心里的那扇门打开..
不然，就不要不请自来..
若继续进攻，我不但不会开门..
我会继续上锁，继续增加防卫线..
因为我不想太多人那么了解我..

我的心门不是为那些想了解我的人而打开的..
而是为那些我想要他们懂我认识我而打开的..
没受邀请的就不要再来了..
因为我永远都不会让你认识最真实的我..

never read mind..

歌曲:
《你为什么说谎》- 丁当
《在这里》- 黄奕达
《亲人》- 丁当

2010-02-16T11:50:00.002+08:00

歌曲介绍

这次介绍的是韩国歌曲..
词曲都很不错，很感人..

> if - kim taeyeon..
> can you hear me (Beethoven Virus)- kim taeyeon..
> Dear Mom - SNSD..

希望你们会喜欢..

现阶段会比较少上来..
因为最近比较忙..
有很多想post的感触..
不过没时间..
等时间松懈一些些，就回回来了..

现在就听听着三首歌曲把..

2009-12-30T13:16:00.002+08:00

烦！！！

很烦！！！
最近真的很烦..
烦到、累到..
自己都不想去看自己的schedule..

真的很忙..
忙到陪朋友的时间都没有..
忙到连天使的礼物都还没做好..
忙到都没时间去在乎自己想在乎的人..

我感觉得到..
自己的身心都很疲惫..
可是我也知道自己不能在这时候放弃..
不然，这几年和这几个与阿来的努力与期盼都会功亏一篑..

我需要充电机..
谁会给我的充电机..
谁又是我的充电机..
我要到哪里去找充电机？..

真的有种莫名的压力..
是自己给的，还是累积起来的..
我不知道..
只知道我有点累了..

我的充电机，请你快出现吧..

推荐歌曲：

说谎-林宥嘉
我爱他-丁当
你为什么说谎-丁当
亲人-丁当
心墙-郭静
明白-郭静
偶尔-张韶涵
白白的-张韶涵

2009-12-06T17:11:00.009+08:00

空气弥漫着幸福的气息。

今天，是我生命中最重要的人之一的出嫁之日- 天使结婚了！！！
所以先用这首歌祝福你们有情人终成眷属: 《最浪漫的事》..

一早就和babes们到天使的阿嫲家..
果然，天使就是天使..
她真的很漂亮..
非常非常的美丽..
根本就是披着一件白色及高贵典雅的天使嫁衣..

看到她能找到好归宿..
我真的很开心又感动..
此刻的心情是无法形容的..

当年为我们忙上忙下..
烦东烦西，担心一切的天使..
终于定下来了..

希望她和她的老公能幸幸福福的度过这一生..
还有，我很期待小baby的到来..

天使：希望你能开开心心的过每一天.. 我会尽快把礼物完成送你的..

果然，女人永远会在结婚当天把最完美的自己呈现出来..
每个女人都会在婚礼当天成为全世界最漂亮的女人..
BUT.. 天使，你永远都会是我心中最好最善良最美丽的天使:)..

好好休息，今天应该忙到累了吧..
best wishes to you & your hubby:)..
happy wedding:D..

2009-10-31T18:18:00.002+08:00

下雨。心寒

今天一个人在家..
天空好黑..
风吹得很大..
要下雨了..
很喜欢这种天气..
因为它代表着我的心情..

一个人在空荡荡的房子..
就有如我心里头一般的空虚..
风一直吹..
着代表着我心寒了..

现在也只能用歌曲来代表我的心情: S.H.E《最轻还好吗》..

我想关心你..
可是却不知该怎么表现..
因为害怕与你有距离..
所以害怕自己会关心得太明显..
也因为这样我可以与你有一点点的距离..

知道和你是不可能的..
知道这次又是另一个空白的等待..
可是却赖皮的死不放手..
但，我怕自己也会有累的时候..

不过还是会像白痴一样..
希望这次的等待会给我一个我最向往的答案..
我喜欢你...

waiting..

2009-10-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

风筝

恋爱就好像放风筝一样..

若把风筝的线拉得太紧..
线很容易就会被拉断..
若线放得太松..
风筝就会被风吹走..

所以..
要拥有一段美好的爱情..
一定要给于彼此适当的关爱..
这样彼此才会珍惜这段恋情..

给于太多的爱护会被嫌恶心..
给于太少的关爱会被嫌不关心..
适当的爱戴才是再好不过的..

就像放风筝一样..
有时拉紧，有时放松..
这样风筝才会越飞越高..
越飞越美丽..
两个人的恋情才会越变越美好..
越变越珍贵..

2009-10-25T17:06:00.002+08:00

爱情

你们懂盆栽是什么吧..
要盆栽能健康地成长..
细心的照顾、定时的浇水和施肥..
这些都是栽种盆栽所需要做的事..
这样一来，盆栽就能健健康康的成长..

盆栽是很敏感很麻烦的东西..
因为..
浇太多水，根会腐烂..
浇太少水，盆栽会枯萎..
不适当的施肥，盆栽就不能魅力的盛开..

爱情就跟栽种盆栽的方式，是相同的..

因为..
爱情需要两个人细心的去经营..
若有一方忽略了、厌倦了..
爱情也会因此而变质..

适当-说得非常容易..
可是有几对情侣..
能给于彼此怎么适当的爱..

真的是..
说得容易做得难..

2009-10-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

天使 i'm sorry

曾经答应过你不在钻牛角尖..
曾经答应过你不要对自己发脾气..

可是，今天我却又在犯了这个错..
对不起..

真的觉得..
有你在的地方真的和安全、很好..
我很想你..
真的很想你..
很想你在我身边的时光..
怀念那些温暖的时刻..
在外头飞翔真的很累..
我真的很想你啊！！

2009-10-15T20:14:00.003+08:00

是时候戴上恶魔的面具

做好人太难了..
做坏人或许能让这场游戏根好玩..

我很期待，也希望大家拭目以待..

从来都不让人爬到我头顶上撒尿..
你也不例外..
若你有本领，我会要你双倍奉还..

最好不要伤害我在乎的人..

道场=球场..
球场的规则和态度我都很清楚..
所以请拭目以待..

2009-10-14T08:59:00.003+08:00

第六感和观察

我感觉得出你心里头有人..
我也大概知道是谁..
也许是我想太多..
不过观察以后..
觉得自己的判断应该没错..

你看着她的时候..
眼神特别温柔..
说话时..
轻声细语的..
在她身上..
你真的有点小不同..
不过我感觉得出你因该是喜欢她..

如果一切都是真的..
请告诉我..
我会祝福你..

不过，请不要阻止..
让我继续在背后守护你..

对不起，谢谢..
waiting..

2009-10-13T01:09:00.002+08:00

不要逼我

我不喜欢被逼..
我不喜欢勉强..
所以我不回去逼喜欢的人接受我..
同样的我不希望欣赏我的人逼我接受他人..

这些都是我的私事..
我不需要局外人来管..
也不需要他人来干扰我的世界..
我有自己的规律、自己的想法..
不需要他人的帮助或什么什么的..

我不喜欢勉强..
所以不要逼我..
越是逼我，我的反弹会越大..
后果自负!!!!

2009-10-11T22:24:00.001+08:00

在意

你说过你不喜欢她..
我知道..
可是就是因为喜欢，所以我在意..
就因为喜欢，所以心里会不是滋味..

我在意你被欺负..
我在意你会受伤..
我在意你被霸占..
我在一你们的合照(听说是刻意的)..
这也是因为喜欢，所以才会有这样的现象..

有时看你被欺负..
自己真的有种冲动想把你拉走..
可是我没有..
我萎缩了..
退让了..
拱手将你让给她去欺负你..
当时是想着..
自己有什么身份在那个时刻把你拉走..
自己有什么资格去阻止你将面临的灾难..
自己有什么地位让你不必忍受这种不必要的痛..
我没有，什么都没有..
我没有任何的身份、地位和资格去帮你..
所以只能在一旁看你被她欺负..

我非常在意但却无能为力..
对不起..

等待.....

2009-10-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

我真的喜欢你

很久以前就想post了.. 可是没时间..

曾经真的想放弃..
曾经真的想不爱了..
可是我放不下..
也不甘心就这样让你这样从我脑里和心里消失..
因为那是我每一天对你累积出的感情..
所以自己不会轻易的放手..
甚至是默默地等待，我也无所谓..

因为我对你的爱已经慢慢的通往爱情的海洋..
就算现在，只有我一个人坐在这条小船上..
我还是会继续努力划向爱情的海洋..
因为我相信，真爱是值得去付出努力的..
不管最后的结局如何..
只要我知道自己曾经有百分之百的努力过..
我绝对不会有遗憾..
而且..
河水从来都不会逆流..
所以..
我对你的感觉也不会回头..

我会继续等下去..

2009-10-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

机会和承诺

我承认自己真的很欣赏你..
可是，我不敢放整颗心去喜欢你..
因为，我不知道自己是否有机会去照顾你..
你会给我机会吗？？

若你能给我机会..
承诺将会是另一个问题..

我只能说:
我现在不能承诺会爱你一辈子..
不能承诺在未来的十年都会爱着你..
因为，未来的事是不能预料的..
我不想伤害你，所以不敢给你承诺..
但，我能承诺..
只要是你和我在一起的每一天..
我都会尽全力让你感到幸福..
也要希望你和我在一起的时光是开心、幸福的..

我只能承诺那么多..
你会给我机会吗？？

等待.........

2009-09-30T23:47:00.003+08:00

我听的歌

希望你们能了解我听的歌（blog）..
每一首对我来说都有不同的意义与含义..

《hope your love will be happy》..
旋律有点祝福中的哀伤...
还蛮喜欢这种感觉..(当然不希望是在自己的身上)..

《专属天使》..
这可以说是我给天使的trademark..
读我2008，十一月的post就会懂了..

《我们的故事》..
是我想对好姐妹们和天使说的话..

《魔力》..
天使就是我的魔力..
因为她算是最了解我的.. 很想他！！..

《一起开始的旅程》..
代表和好姐妹们的感情吧..
从陌生到现在的熟悉..

《612星球》..
代表我和所有单身女人的心声..

《最近还好吗》..
很想问某某人的话..

《PROUD》、《UNFORGETTABLE》..
喜欢他们的合声..
听起来，感觉他们的感情很好..很羡慕..

《蒲公英的约定》、《说好的新股呢》..
哭哭的时候，很喜欢听..

《MY EVERYTHING》..
朋友和天使是我的一切！！..

《如果我变成回忆》..
我很想知道其他人会有什么反应..
如果我真的变成回忆..

《P.S.我爱你》、《GUARDIAN ANGEL》、《默默》..
想对我欣赏或喜欢的人唱这些歌..

《梦田》..
听起来还蛮舒服..
喜欢SHE的合声..

《搞笑》..
有一点我自己的心声..

《给我你的爱》..
不能说的秘密..:P

《锁住时间》..
我好怀念也好想念过去..
想把当时的每一秒给锁住..

希望你们也会喜欢我喜欢的歌..:P

今天心情还不错..
只是天气很热！！..
病也回来了..=.=!!

2009-09-29T23:48:00.004+08:00

被爱、爱人、相爱

从以前，甚至到至今，我都相信..

被爱是幸福的，
爱人是辛苦的，
相爱才是再好不过的..

每个人都有被爱的权利..
也有去爱人的权利..
但相爱永远都没有权利而是需要缘分..

真的只能说..
我爱的人不是我的爱人..
永远都在等待..
一直都在等待..
我会继续等待..

默默守候是我的习惯、我的作风..

2009-09-17T00:18:00.005+08:00

爱

世界上有两种爱..

第一种（不好的爱）：
因为需要所以爱.. 列如：你没空但，你的另一半要你马上到他身旁.. 你别无选择的去陪他..

第二种（好的爱）：
因为爱所以需要.. 列如：另一半要你陪她，但知道你没空后，他说没关系，还叫你多休息..

对我来说，爱与暗恋都是一样的..
我永远都不会向我暗恋的对象表白..
我会一直留在他身后守候和支持他..
若它有心仪的对象，我也会忍痛的祝福他..
希望他能好好过..
若有一天，他知道我一直都在等他，知道我的存在..
而也渐渐的对我有feel~..
那就说明了我们彼此有缘分..

我宁愿爱的伟大..
也不要爱的自私..
永远不会死灿烂打..
而是细心与耐心的守候着..

2009-09-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

观察

上星期，去踏脚车..
第一次踏得那么慢, 第一次真正的仔细的观察周围的风景..
这时我才发现, 我忽略了即将走过20次的风景..
沉醉在耳机传出的歌声，欣赏着自己从未没下来欣赏的风景..
大树随着风向摇摆,
叶子随着风向摇晃..
而风吹着新鲜的空气进入了我的内脏,
而风轻轻的吹在我脸上让我感到清爽..

忽略..
人生的脚步、速度实在太快了..
忽略往往都成为每个人将犯下的'错'..
所以才会埋怨世界的不好、不公平和不愉快..
但，若有一天，大家肯慢下脚步去观察去察觉这世界的美好..
到时，你会发现你忽略了周围曾经所发生的一切..
但，不要后悔..
因为这会让你懂得去珍惜，或许会跟快乐..

可是，这种快乐对你们或许是永久..
但，对我这种人是短暂的..
我的人生有太多的起伏..
经历了不少挫折..
成长的许多..
看到人生的黑暗也特别多..
所以快乐，我几乎忘了是什么..
直道天使的出现..
所以又重新的对人好..
可是，每一次我都会后悔对人好..
不是被人背叛..
就是惹来一些不必要的‘桃花‘..
我不喜欢伤害人..
所以不懂得拒绝..
也忘了这么拒绝..
我的铁心好像不在了..

我的人生未免太精彩了吧..=.=

2009-09-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

女人最终还是要爱情的滋润

再坚强的女人，终会有空虚寂寞的时候..
我不算坚强，但也不软弱..
可是，我真的很寂寞，很空虚..
缘分因该还没到吧..
还在期待着，自己的小王子..
期待它能拿着一束拥有许少刺的玫瑰花..

从没后悔当年三年的空白等待，只是现在在期待下一个美好的未来..
希望缘分快点来！！

2009-08-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

原本想做的事，但却办不到，心里是如此的煎熬.. 很害怕原有的坚强意志会慢慢的瓦解...

梦想是什么？？
我的确也非常清楚自己要的是什么..
可是，现实和事实永远就是那么残酷..
永永远远都把我和梦想分得远远的..
但，事实就是如此..
原本想做的事，但却办不到..
我心里的煎熬又有谁能了解..
真的很痛苦..
我没想过要放弃..
不过一再再的打击..
我真的会害怕原有的坚强意志会慢慢的瓦解...
我很爱也想要去实现我的梦..
但，我不知道自己还得坚持多久..

我不会放弃音乐..
但很害怕会放弃此时此刻就读的科系..

2009-08-05T12:08:00.002+08:00

今天，一个人在家..
想了一些些的东西..
当我陶醉的读着书、看着电脑、听着音乐..
我既然忽略了周遭的边化..
直道我起身走动，才发现..
天变得那么黑, 雨水也渐渐的哗啦啦的落下..

人往往都是这样..
一但投入了某件事..
常常都会忽略周围的变化..
当清醒时，才发现一切都变得好多好多..

但我还是不明白，自己为何会有这样的想法..

2009-07-16T01:13:00.002+08:00

现在，真的迷失了..
忘了自己要的是什么..
失去了战斗力..
真的很力不从心..

但，我不会放弃..
我有我的梦...
我希望能完成它来报答..
在乎我，而我也在乎他们的人..

谢谢你们..
我会努力的..
请给我一点时间去找出路..

2009-06-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

真的好想要一个时光机..
真的很想让时间回到离别前的时刻..
我真的很怀念..
除了思念和怀念..
我真的没有别的形容词了..
真的很想念我的sexy babes..
老婆..
yiping sis 她们..
还有，我根想念我的天使..
我要一个时光机!!! 我想锁住时间..

2009-05-02T21:02:00.003+08:00

人总会有迷失方向的时候..
因为在我们的身旁都围绕着不同款式的迷宫..
只要一个不留神..
一个不小心就很容易步入一个难以摸索的迷宫..
尤其是照亮你人生道路的明灯突然消失时..
你会觉得迷失在迷宫里是非常的可怕..
但，除了你自己，没有别人能带你走出这迷宫..
我很确定现在自己已经迷失了方向..

我不习惯说出自己的心事..
所以常迷失方向..
希望我的明灯能继续照亮我的前方..

2009-04-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

朝着梦想的到路迈进..
清楚明白..
不是遗忘过去而是把它好好的储存起来..
我相通了..
这段日子..
发生了好多事..
觉得自己又长大了一点点..
我会把握现在所拥有的机会..
因为时间不等人..
I have stop dwelling..
wasted too much time..
i had a starting point for my dream..
and i will cherish every chance that was given to me..

CONGRATZ!!
Peggy Chua had stop dwelling =DDD..

2009-04-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

new environment..

讨厌这种环境..
陌生..
距离..
又是这种feel~..
hate it!!

真的要跟天使say bye bye了..
快开学了..
没有那么多时间回去看你了..
你要保重..
我真的会很想你的..

有再多的不愿意..
有再多的不舍得..
我已不能继续停留在这里了..
是时候该前进了..

天使我要往外飞了..
你那温暖的教室永远存在我的心里..
有你在远方的守候我已很感激了..
希望我们的故事会继续延续下去..
谢谢你..

2009-02-21T23:02:00.003+08:00

so near yet so far..

so near..

yet so far..=(

今天，去参FM S.H.E 的签唱会..
苦等了8小时终于到我上台索取签名..
不过，在少过30秒的时间就离开台上了..
虽然，有握到他们的手，有眼神的交流..
可是，我却没有一点真实的感觉..
自己觉得，等候了那么就（很多年），却在这么短的时间得到..
真得有点不可思议..
不过，这时我也了解偶像和粉丝真得有很大的区别和距离..
做粉丝的真的只能在台下默默的崇拜..
看着你支持的偶像穿着华丽的服装在台上载歌载舞..
永远都存有一点点的距离感..

so near yet so far.. =(
T.T
HEBE~~~~~

2009-01-16T08:47:00.003+08:00

为什么?? 为什么大家都走回自己的记忆..
可是我还是留在原地..
为什么一直放不下..
为什么一直忘不了..
校园里所留在脑里四年的回忆都是好的..
为什么我会这么痛苦..
为什么回想起会有哀伤的感觉..
我真的不明白自己现在要的什么..
ah dong 走了过后..
那种失去的意味越来越重..
就是在毕业后..
我真的失去好多东西..
太多了..
而且，那种距离感真的让我感到很不安..
就像昨天，回到学校..
虽然，有好多陌生的脸孔..
但，我有感到熟悉的感觉..
可是那种强烈的距离感真的让我很不安..
我是害怕还是什么?? 我不知道..
只知道..
自己也越来越成沉默..
感觉得出自己好像在结冰..
没有以前那么阳光..
也没像以前那么容易就能和陌生人打交道..
我不懂自己是在干什么..
是长大了? 还是变孤僻了?
我真得不懂..
我真得很怕失去..
那种感觉真得很不好受..
因为我真的感到非常空虚..
真得很还怕会失去..
最重要的天使..
最重要的老婆..
最重要的亲爱的..
最重要的sexy babes..
真得很空虚..
心里真得很空虚..

原来，我最大的害怕是..
失去、距离和离别..
我很讨厌这种感觉..

2008-12-05T22:46:00.003+08:00

他因该没在我脑里缠绕了吧..
因该从脑里抽出来了吧.. 剩余的都是友谊而以吧..
不要愧疚hor.. smile more.. =))
will miss you as a friend.. =))

这几个星期来我一直都很想念:
miss portia tan..
老婆..
mel mel..
ah dong..
my sexy babes..
my secondary school & class mates..
also found back many primary school friends..
felt so warm.. miss everyone..

在爱情里.. 大家都会是个傻瓜..
我在等待属于我的另一个他..

2008-11-26T21:31:00.003+08:00

刚看完S.H.E 的612星球的MV..
MV虽然简单..
但，我觉得MV背后有着一个含义..
就是..
每个人都一直在为自己的事业拼搏..
可是，哪一个女人不可望有一段很好的恋情..
MV里，虽然是从S.H.E的新歌演唱会剪接出来的..
但，以我个人的角度..
我是觉得她们三个和普通女人一样..
每天忙着宣传、通告、演唱会..
可是，她们也很希望个人都会有一个爱自己的好男人再等她们..
心中的寂寞不是每个人都能体会的..
MV里，看她们尽力的载歌载舞..
呈现出完美动感的表演给所有的歌迷..
但，有谁了解单身女人的寂寞、等待、渴望..

喜怒哀乐，是能受到控制的..
外表，总能把内心的一切包装得很好..
心里的一切，是不能从外表来判断的..
要了解一个人，必须先了解她的心..

不说，并不代表不理..
不哭，并不代表不哀..
不悲，并不代表不痛..

favourite phrase from S.H.E 612星球:

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

2008-11-15T21:19:00.005+08:00

yesterday was prom..
everything seems to go so fast..
and it was too fast..
when i turn back..
it was like the day i just enter TSS..
which is 2005 in class 1E5.. FT was mr. ng beng keong
same as 2006 in class 2E5..
year 2007 we split classes..
i went into class 3E2.. FT & geo miss tan kuan kuan, maths- Miss Portia Tan<333, Eng- dr lau, Lit- miss haryati & miss tang, Bio- miss chu, chem- mdm ng, phy- mr tan puay eng, ss- mdm chan
year 2008 i continued in class 4E2.. same FT, geo, lit, bio, phy teachers..
maths became mrs peggy koh
chem became mr chan
ss became mr andy..
in TSS, i gain many experiences.. not matter is waas good or bad.. but through all this 'lessons' i did grow up.. and i learn how to be a better person.. cos i really 看出人间的险恶，和人与人之间的关爱.
many teachers did treat me very well.. got too many of them.. so i will just say thank you very much for everything.. you all are great teachers!!

but the most important one will always be my dear MISS PORTIA TAN.. she will be my best teacher of my life.. no one can replace her in my heart..

To miss tan,

认识你也只有短短的两年。但在这两年短暂的学习旅程，你让我觉得学校并不是一个战场。因为在认识你之前，有一些老师的勾心斗角让我对学校感到非常失望。他们除了自己的利益，也从来都不把我们心灵上的创伤放在眼里。他们的举动让我对学校的制度感到非常的绝望。可是，老天疼笨小孩。他在我失落和绝望的时刻，让一个带着希望之光的天使来到了我的世界。在天使的细心教导下，我们班的maths成绩都一直保持在一定的水准。还有，学校就像是一个了冷宫，但在block D 第一楼的 D1-03，不管是经过还是进去，我都会感到一阵阵的温暖。因为那里是最安全，最温暖的房间。里面会有一个声音又高又大声，但，身材娇小又美丽的女老师。和她在一起，烦恼悲哀都可以抛出脑外。因为她可以帮你隔离外界的争吵，而，用她那幅甜蜜又灿烂的笑容温暖及填满你空虚又寒冷的心房。可是，老天爱捉弄人。在紧要关头的时刻，它呼唤天使回到天堂。我乱了，慌了，大家都不知所措。每天都一直呼唤着天使，希望她能够回来救我。但，她也有自己的难言之以，所以不能回到人间来保护我。可是，天使一直都在我的身旁陪着我，也了解我的困难。所以就当她把其它任务做完后，她又回到人间给我伸出援手。可是，我还是没办法做到最好来报答她，但他都不怪我让我觉得好惭愧。还有，我生病的时候，天使每次都会慰问和关心我，让我很感动与感激。她无微不至的关怀和爱护也填满了我世界的色彩。不过，现在我又要和天使分开了。这次，是真的离开。因为我需要到外界闯荡和学习，所以和天使的距离会根遥远。我舍不得，也不想放手。但，为了自己的未来我会慢慢的学着去放手。可是，我会把我们之间最美好的回忆放在心里和脑里的最深处。永远都不会忘记。也不会忘记你的笑容、笑声、容貌、声音、还有你的眼泪。那位天使就是你，我的专属天使。我会很想你的。

离别是最残酷的..
要珍惜现在所拥有的一切..
不要等失去了才懂得珍惜..

2008-11-02T18:19:00.003+08:00

hey guys..=)
this week ended with..
physic- disappointed.. the paper suckz..
emaths- can be done, not sure whether i will do well..=)
biology- easy.. but i will not do well..( blame myself).. =(

this week ended with these three paper.. the two sciences- don't want to talk about it anymore.. emaths.. really wanted to thank miss tan.. if she did not help me through all the consultations.. i think i will have a hard time dealing with the paper.. have to thank her very much.. she is always there for me.. when i am in trouble.. really..=DD.. and miss chu.. also have to thank you.. but i will blame myself for the bad result i might produce.. sorry.. =(

ok as for today.. just now went to buy bra with my aunt.. in the afternoon, my ah ma was so cute la.. she knew that i am going out with my anut.. than she called me.. she say she want to go out with me.. i think is because i had not see her for around 2 months time.. ever since i started to prepare for Os.. sorry ah ma.. so i went to fetch my ah ma and headed to CCK to meet my aunt.. but we did not buy anything there.. cos it was not suitable for me.. so we headed to causweway point.. funny things happen when i was in the fitting room with aunt..(shall not elaborate cos v ps).. after buying the things i need.. we bring ah ma to eat dessert and walk around the shopping mall.. ah ma was so cute lor.. very ke ai!!! ah ma wanted to eat Ajisen.. so we went back to CCK lot1 there to eat.. aunt went home first.. so i treat ah ma to Ajisen.. she eat until very cute lor.. but she can't finish all, cos she say that the serving was too big for her.. so i paid for the bills.. and cabbed her home.. really miss ah ma.. so long did not see her.. promise to go home for dinner on next sat =DD..

my ah ma very cut hor!! =DD

2008-10-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

emo..
emo day..
emo weeks..

like what mel had said..
ever since grad night..
i was always emoing..
no matter where and when..
i was not very use to my emo self..
but i just can't be as hyper as ever..

有很多的思念和顾虑..
不舍得放手，但我还是需要..
悲伤的心情，还是会引藏..
不是我不想说，而是我开不了口..
因为已经习惯了怎么压抑自己的心情..
除了抱怨，也没有那个习惯说出自己的心事..

今天，没说很多话..
因为，害怕自己无法控制自己的情绪..
因该，学着放手吧..
但，离开学校的日子会是怎样?
我不知道.

我会很忙..
钱.
梦想.
老师.
家人.
很多很多.

i don't know what i want to say le..
emo.. keep emoing..
always study and emo..

i love this phrase from 彩虹:
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
and
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍

等'我'回来....

2008-10-25T23:14:00.003+08:00

我们没办法完成她的梦想。。。

没做完的梦最痛吧.
对不起.
是我们不够争气.
没法达到你两年前所定下的目标.
一切都来不及了吧.
除了对不起，我也不知道要说什么.
虽然你说不是我们，但我还是会惭愧.
你要保重.

2008-10-24T22:31:00.004+08:00

hi guys..
had not post for months..
busying with O levels..
Just ended 1st week papers..
overall still ok..
chemistry- quite disappointed..
english- manageable, not sure whether i will do well..
amaths p1&p2- go fly kite..
geography- manageable, not sure whether i will do well..
emaths p1- manageable, not sure whether i will do well..
will pray hard for the rest of my papers..

Got some personal message wanted to tell Miss. Tan, but you dn really have to read it =)..

sorry that i had wasted so much of your time.. you spend so much time on me.. but during the amaths exam.. i still got blockage.. sitll stuck.. and indeed i really wish to give up half way through paper2.. but i still finish it in the end.. cos i know that you don't like people who give up easily.. however, i was still very disappointed with my performance.. even though you said that is ok - every moment you say 'is ok', the more guilty i will be.. i cant say anything, but apologize to you.. i really wish to do well but i just cant.. really sorry..

next, like what i always tell you.. you are the best teacher i ever have.. you care for every student, whom you had taught before.. always do more than what a teacher should do.. gave us aid during critical moment- O level examination. gave us a helping hand when we got abandon by that irresponsible teacher.. treat us very very well, even though we are not your students.. worrying and panicing when we having our papers.. actually, you can not to care about us, but you still stay on to give us a hand.. to me.. 你给我们的关怀和温暖，是不能从其他老师们的身上感受到的。i really got nothing better to repay you, cos i don't think i can produce a very good result to repay you.. also,我不懂该怎样回报你对我那无微不至的照顾。you were worried when i keep vomiting.. got frustrated when that irresponsible one did not go through certain topic with us.. worry that you had gone too fast, when we dn understand the solution.. always slow down your pace for me- cos my brain work slowly.. no matter how dumb i was.. you will always teach me patiently and slowly.. even spending your rest time on us.. also, a great person, who i shared my problems with.. moreover, fours years had passed so fast.. yet, in 2 years time you had done so much.. done so much for us.. i really don't know what to do, but to treat you as nice as i can.. thats why i will be quite sad when you are tire.. cos i m e cause of it.. cause you not to have enough sleep and etc.. i really just wish that you can take good care of yourself- don't always eat and drink those junk food.. remember to sleep early.. and, when everything of mine had settle down.. i will carry out the plan that i had told you.. i shall stop here first.. cos i run out of tissue liao.. take care!!! will really miss you after O level.. will go back to TSS more often to see you!!! =D..

2008-08-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

yo guys..
posting again..
not a good post either..

just found out that..
there was a bitch had been spouting nonsense to other people..
that she was a innocent party..
please..
if you are clever enough you will use your butt and think..
wtf..
you are the one who is finding excuses not to do the work..
you are the one who is angry with other people when he/she got a reason for not doing it..
you are the one who irritate me at the first place!!
you nbcb..
still wanna act innocent in front of me..
and stab me at the back??
you do not know me well right..
if i heard that you are still spouting nonsense..
is the time you say bye bye..
please cut ur act..
that ws irritating..
sucky asshole..

anyway guys.. the person i refering now was not the person i refering in the previous post..
so do not get mixed up..
=DD

2008-08-01T17:05:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.. did not post for a long time..

anyway this will not be a good post either..ZZZ

this person will never get to know who he/she is..
story beings:
i can only tell you this.. friend you had change..
eventhough is not that much.. but the fact is getting obvious..
just like what ah bud had told me..
you are noisy, irritating..
ya.. thats true..
sometime i find that you are quite noisy and irritating..
i will never say this in your face..
cause i do not want to break this friendship..
eventhough there is no forever..
and you are getting too over on some events..
i will make all these comments on my blog..
is because i am afraid that i cannot tolerate your whatever act anymore..
it is abit too much for me..
i had a very low level of tolerance..
Well you know it too..
so wish you will take your step carefully..
next, suspect others will always turn a situation worst..
lastly, everything will have a process:
tolerate>> irritated>> hate>> die..

and i wish that, i will never exceed the stage of tolerate on you..
i think you wouldn't want that to happen too..
cause there is no advantage being gain by me and you..

i will make all this comment is because my rate of tolerance on you is rising nearly reaching the peak.. so i would like to release out some of my anger, before i blow my top off on you. =))

you will never know who you are.. =))

2008-04-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!!! did not post update my blog for months..
sorry i'm simply too busy for my school work..
everyday homework homework and still homework..
can stop talking about school.. it was so boring..
but we still entertain ourselves..=D

thanks to ying ting, praisey, aw, tan, manager liyi, may ni and rac..
and my two dearest daughters mel and jess, who had not drive me crazy..
(but almost there)=.=
thank them for accopany me through my PMS periods..
when that time got so angry with that particular teacher..
who drive my CCA crazy.. a lady.. yup
cannot mention.. otherwise my brain will roll down to the ground..

now lets be a BHB for a while..
this few week i had guai guai studied..
eventhough still did not complete some work on time.. (chemistry)
you guys know why..
but mid- year was coming.. got to study hard..
so my next post..
i think.. not sure when will be the next time i will be posting..
but guys.. you all must take care.. all the best!!!

2008-02-17T19:43:00.002+08:00

hi guys..
did post on this blog for about 1 month.
currently posting on:
http://lonely-winterr.blogspot.com
you guys can go and view it..
if i had invite you..
if i did not.. you can leave a tag for me..
i will try to invite you.. =)

nowadays was quite busy..
new year, school event and now.. common test..ZZZ
so do not have lots of time to put on blogging..
the blog will be half time for a few times..
will try to post on this blog too!!

2008-01-19T06:44:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. yesterday was my big day..
got to thanks everyone who gave me all the present..
i was very touch and happy by you guys..
now i am 16 = o levels is coming..
so guys let work hard together to pass it with flying colours!!!

now i got to thanks those guys that gave me all the present:

first got to thank Li Yi, Ying Ting, Rachel, Ah AW, Ah Tan, Prasiey, May Ni..
thank you for the MYUK wallets.. and sweets..
eventhough you all did not manage to buy the fake mouse to scare me!! HAHAHA..

Secondly, got to thanks Amelia for making the birthday card and paper rose..
thank you so much!!!

thirdly, OMG it was really a big gift!!! Got to thank jolene, sya, yan hui, kevin, i think still got somemore, but they ddi not tell me..
HAHA.. thank you guys for the sports bra and file!!! Thank You!!!

Next got to thank jessie for her socks and key chain..
and my dear sis yi ping, thanks for her treat of the slurpee!!!
oh ya!! still got dear jue ying bao bei..
althought she forget to bring, Really thanks alot!! love ya lots too..

Ya.. still got the melissa!!! OMG.. she bought me a shirt where a ladt is sort of showing her butt =.=.. and a blue short, which i think is short, she and jess think is long.. But still thanks alot!!!

Lastly got to thank all people that had wishes me.. thank you..
my class 4e2.. thank you for your birthday song..
AND miss solastri, eventhough is kinda suan by her..
but i still thank her for singing a short verse of birthday song to me!!

thank you guys.. i really appreciate the things you guys had given to me..
THANK YOU!!!

2007-12-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

from today onwards..
all post from this blog will be fake and a lie to you guys..
yiping will help me to create my personal blog..
that will be my true feeling and thinking..
that blog will be ONLY show to people who show me true care and true love..
people who really know me well..
people who understand me..
is not that i do not want to write out my true feelings here..
but sometime to the others..
they may not feel good after reading..

and all this lead to sacrifies..
and from today onwards i may not sacrify for all people who i know..
not all my families, friends, CCA, SCHOOL and all sorts of things that irritates me..
can say that i knew it long ago or just knew it today..
every sacrifies you do is equal to every harm and hurt you give it to YOURSELF!!!
this 15 years of being a human being is such a waste..
i wasted at the total of 5475days , 131400hours, 7884000min and 473040000sec..
is time for me to stop.. as i wasted too much time.. thath causes me..
to lost my childhood.. lost the time of being a child..
to lost my time to know that i'm a human not a robot..
as even robot needs a break too..
sacrifies had cause me too much..
i am sick and tire of all the craps given by you people(not refering to all)..

so from today onwards..
i will only sacrify for people who are worth for me to sacrify..
if you are really worth..
i may willing to use my life to sacrify for you..
if you are not worth for my sacrifies..
NOT EVEN MY SINGLE CELL WILL BE WILLING TO SACRIFY FOR YOU!!!!!

2007-12-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. just came back from YV camp..
the YV camp was really fun.. the programmes were very enriching..
gain different knowledge and skills from the camp.. =))
but i don't feel like saying the camp..
cause it was fun and happy..
just wish my blog could be my emo blog..
jus stay as emo as it could..
i have lots of feelings and thoughts wannna to say out..
but i just can't express out..
and staying deep in my heart was so hard and painful..
really.. really want to know how are you now..
my feelings was just exactly the same as the song which my blog was playing..
and at the mean time i also want to wish happiness to you..
however, you may not feel the hurts i feel..
days and months had pass..
the wound had not been cured..
i am so confuse..
so hurt.. especially when the cold wind blow..
the wind is just equal to a spear or a knife..
i got hurt everytime and every moment when the wind blow..
Ahhh!!! i am so confuse..
and mat i not how are you now??

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

MAY I KNOW HOW ARE YOU NOWADAYS???

2007-12-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

now playing song by S.H.E,《最近还好吗》in the show of 斗牛要不要 bull fight..
lyric!!!:
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

this is very nice song..
very meaningful..
read the lyric ya?
very nice and sad..
the lyric says:
a couple broke up..
the girl felt lonely and still love the guy..
she just wanted to know whether he was fine?
do he stil remember her?
was he busy?
was he tire?
was his broken heart being cured?
wanted tell him that..
if he did forget about her..
he must be fast to go for his happiness..
sad right.. omg..
must listen this song!!..
is sad sad sad!!!!
support S.H.E and 斗牛要不要 bull fight!!

don't forgot to support ayu too!!

link back to the lyric..
i also want to know how are you..
want to ask all the questions that is from the lyric..=((
你最近还好吗？

2007-11-15T21:07:00.000+08:00

i am afraid when you uses the those gentle tone to talk to me again..
that was past a very long past..
but i heard that you change alot..
however to me..
i cannot notice any..
you are just you..
did not change..
same old you..
are still so quiet and discipline..
you are still the same lame one..
the special ones..
who show the weak side of yours to girls..
unlike other guys
we still friends..
i do not want any weird stuff happen between me and you again
therefore i was afraid when you uses those gentle tone..
but that still nice..
OMG.. i am such a insane..

now talk about 斗牛要不要.. is starting at this SUNDAY!!!
must watch.. support them.. omg.. i love this lines:..

HEBE:敢不敢跟我来场真心相对的赛事，斗牛，要不要
贺军翔：不要白费力气了，你是赢不了我的。
HEBE:就算你用全世界最严密的防守，
我也会想办法找到你的破绽，突破你，超前你，然后穿越你，因为喜欢你，所以得分。

OMG.. nice right??? therefore must watch!!!!! hahaha...

2007-11-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

OMG... 斗牛要不要 is coming out..
is buy Hebe!!!.. haha.. is a basketball show..
but i want watch it!!
not because of basketball anyway..to be frank..
i do not have any more interest in basketballl anymore..
time change alot of things..
mainly is because of study..
and i do not have lots of time..
secondly.. can say that..
after a very long period of time..
i had think that i had waste too much time for school basketball..
that dosen't mean i do alot of things for the team..
is just that.. i felt i had waste all of time on it..
but i did not receive any reslt..
is kind of tire..
and is time for me to do my own stuff.. tink more for myself..
the girls are old enough to think..
i cannot always help them..
so i am letting it go.. yup..
but that doesn't mean i hate basketball..
i will continue to play if i am free..
things dad say was correct..
i shall jus treat basketball as an exercise..
do not really need to be so devoted.. play play thats it.. yup..
anyway.. wish you guys can support 斗牛要不要..
as all actor & actresses had put in their real skills..
with no subsitution.. in cluding Hebe..
she play basketball wor..was quite pro wor..
MUST WATCH!!!.. support them ya??.. haha..
i love their preview.. was romantic!!!.. haha..

2007-10-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

yoz.. guyz.. sry ar.. so long did not post.. oh.. my result was bad.. but will work hard.. for my dreams.. at least pass a O level.. yup i must jia you.. hee..
last friday.. wengt celebrate with.. melissa.. ying ting.. manager li yi.. jess aw.. mayni.. and rachel.. we go eat steam boat.. and had lots of fun there.. haha.. manager and rac help me tie a toot toot hair.. damn funny la.. a bit maloo.. haha.. we ate for about 4hours.. oh mann.. that was full.. after that we go buy the bubble and blow all the way we walk.. kinda we had went back to the childhood time.. haha.. after that.. we went back to take bus to mrt station.. the rest went home le.. me ying ting and jess aw went mac to slack tikk about 11 plus.. than i went home first.. reach home about 12am.. haha.. i bath.. and rest awhile.. than went to bed.. hehe.. saturday.. got nothing special.. got training for SC thingy.. but don't really know what is happening.. haha.. as i was too tire.. sunday.. mornig went for dance.. oh mann.. my whole holidays was almost book by it.. cannot even find a slot for my job.. oh mann.. gonna broke.. sian half.. during tution i was so tire.. till i fell asleep.. so funny and maloo sia.. haha.. today got lesson.. dr.lau was funny today.. got to study harder in order to pass O levels.. omg.. it seems still got months to go.. but actually it was conming nearer and nearer.. ZZZ.. that all..

2007-10-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hell mann.. WTH.. today and Yesterday.. was the most suay day for us.. some fucking asshole bitch.. more so damn big.. go any how say.. please we also got father got mother.. got pride de hor.. you leh.. this is not the first time you did this asshole stuff.. we are trying to forgive you.. whenever ah tan scolding you.. we will try to cover for you.. you this fucking bitch.. come sabo us.. wa lan eh.. hao xing mei hao bao.. nan ma de.. you jealous is it.. want to make us cannot promote ar.. want be teachers' pet ar.. i tell you..you don't come anyhow anyhow with me.. so what.. what is your fucking blog saying.. you are sorry.. oh mann.. i can't even see that you got put anything sincerer in your fucking asshole post.. this is not the first time.. last itme you say the class sucks.. you say the three people who treat you good.. who treat you as friends.. you say they are bad influence.. omg.. i tell you.. now the people you are mixing with.. are really bad influence.. let me tell you again.. if you kill a person.. after that than you say sorry.. please.. if everyone is like you.. tell you.. police will lose job sooner or later.. tomorrow i hit you till pig head.. than i say sorry.. you suang ma.. if you suang.. means you will.. asshole or retarded than will suang.. nan be cb.. you are really being pity.. people whose action move faster than their brain.. so ke lian wor.. need doctor.. i can hire one for you.. let me tell you people.. this is my blog.. i can do what ever i want.. post anything i like.. if you.. my class that teachers' pet.. see liao buay song.. come find me.. do not be so hum ji.. and kill us at the back.. let me tell you.. i hate this.. coward.. escapist.. did not think before you act.. you this kind of bitch is so pathetic.. go la.. go be a PORfessional.. go por teachers la.. por more.. por.. the more you por.. the more people will hate you.. go ahead.. a nice class.. is going to ruin by you.. this is the second time.. i say before.. i will be nice.. but if you want me to be nasty to you.. i tell you.. come ahead and try me.. let see how long you can stand in my game.. i will wait to see how you survive in this anf next year.. no one force you to take this path.. is yoou choose it.. people be nice to you.. too bad.. you did not cherish it.. thats your fault.. don't even wish taht i will forgive you mann.. what you did to me.. i will want you to pay for it.. sooner or later.. is not a fun thing to play with me.. let me tell you.. sucker.. fucking bitch of the class...

2007-10-13T10:18:00.000+08:00

yoz.. now nothing to do.. later going to travel agency.. haha.. going to oversea this holidays.. woohoo.. haha.. yesterday go out will wilna and li ping.. miss both of them so much.. almost three months did not see both of them.. haha.. li ping did not change much.. sometime will still siao siao.. but the aunty loy does change much.. haha.. turn chio le wor.. but fiercer.. haha.. jkjk.. then we go around slacking, eat, walk, accompany wilna to buy her friend present.. and that is our day..

personal feeling.. i am getting you out or my mind.. but i just wish that you can stop concerning about me.. i know.. you are treating me as friends.. but i need more time to get over it ya? =).. let time to cure and change everything fine.. i am alright.. not that hurts.. and not thinking much too.. life still got to go on ya?.. haha.. every hurdles make us grow up.. ya!.. this is life.. jia you to me myself and everyone.. HAHAHAHA..

今时不同往日。虽然我们靠的好近，可是距离却好远。那也不错吗？hehehe..

2007-10-10T19:14:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz.. hi everybody.. I'M BACK...hahahahahha.. after two weeks of toturing.. finally come to a peace.. tomorrow left only chinese.. therefore do not need to worry so much.. but later will revise awhile.. hahaha..

personal feeling.. now i am pure.. very pure.. no more worries and no more heartache.. everything to me is quite fine now.. not so emo.. everything just wait for fate.. things that belongs to you.. will never lost.. just only got to wait... like what i sauy before.. i may not belongs to you.. therefore i cannot have you.. so i am fine now.. now got to worry is my results!!! very scare i that i cannot promote.. wish dr.lua can be good for this time.. i do want to drop.. because i love my class.. love my classmate too.. haha.. dr.lua please. make my english overall pass.. hehehe... thanks alot!!

是你的就是你的。时间会给你一个很好的答案。=DD

2007-09-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

Got To Do Quizzz!!!

7 qualities i want in a potential partner:
1) Caring
2) Understanding
3) Humour
4) Romantic
5) Reasonable
6) Thoughtful
7) Loveable

7 thing tat scare me:
1) Lizard
2) Mice
3) Cats
4) Dogs
5) Hamsters
6) Frogs
7) the moment i lost you

7 random songs:
1) 说你爱我
2) 不必在呼我是谁
3) 我们怎么了
4) 退后
5) 你太诚实
6) You are my everything
7) Would you be there

7 things i like most:
1) His love (impossible)
2) Sing song
3) My friends
4) Hebe
5) Ayumi
6) My friends
7) Sad songs

7 important things in my bedroom:
1) Pillows
2) Blanket
3) Fan
4) mp3
5) Dreams
6) Computer
7) Bed

7 Random facts about me:
1) Emo
2) Short
3) Fat
4) Love chatting
5) Love him for a long time
6) Love to day dream
7) Not good looking

7 thing i want to do b4 i die:
1) To had the career i wish to do for very long time
2) Go places i wish to go
3) Meet all my friends, before i left this world
4) Got myself married
5) Meet my idols
6) Work with my idols
7) Earn lots of $$$

7 things i can do:
1) Eat
2) Sleep
3) Talk
4) Run
5) Jump
6) Fly in my dream
7) Day dream

7 thing i say the most:
1) Na bei
2) F***
3) Wa lan
4) Copying in progress
5) Diao
6) Sian
7)Emoing in progress

7 ppl i want to do this test:
1) Jue Ying Bao Bei
2) Jessica Bao Bei
3) Hui Mei
4) Jun Wei
5) Preeti?
6) Liling?
7) D.K?

K done!

2007-09-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

hi guyz.. long time no post.. school was as pernormal.. but my life was 180degree change since yesterday evening.. as for today.. is was totally 360degree change..

personal feeling.. one again.. i lost my grip of you.. i totally lost.. i lost it this time... i lost it.. T.T.. i really lost you.. so what.. who can i blame.. i can't blame anyone except myself.. everything was too late.. too late.. i can't safe the reality any more.. i did not cherish the time that ah bud help us arrange.. i did not cherish the time when i can be with you.. i did not cherish the time when we had topic to talk with.. i did not cherish every moment that i could have you.. now was too late.. everything was too late.. i can't safe it any more.. too late.. is already too late.. i lost you = i lost everything.. you are the one who push me back to the court.. you are the one who give me confident when i going up to the court.. you are almost my everything.. yet.. i lost you.. everything of mine had just vanish into thin air in a few second..

now i am leaving apart of the world..i no longer belongs to the world.. i'm dead...

你既然做出了选择，我也无能为力。我也不因该再用我的爱捆住你。而我心里的三个字，叶子能葬在我的新低。你既然找到你得相信，我将会把这三个字画为你的姓名，永远放在我的心底。其实我还在等待另一个奇迹。

2007-09-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

hi guys..just now when to 2nd aunt's house for dinner.. after eating.. st down and watch tv.. actually i am in my own world at that period.. thinking that.. actually home is the best place for us.. we face problems in the society, we got hurt at the outside world.. home.. a place we seldom care when we are young.. but it was a most protective and warmest place throughout the world.. home.. i need not speak out my problems to my family.. i just need to lean on my bed.. i just need a small corner fr me to cried out my sorrow throughout the night.. that will be the greatest thing the home did for me.. just now my cousin ask me a question.. she asked.. Nursing.. do i really want to take nursing course.. this question come so suddenly.. i was stanted.. i pause for a few seconds.. i just could not answer her question.. if it was last time.. i would answer a 'yes'.. but now? i can't answer her question.. i don't wat held me back.. i just can't give her a answer.. i know what was my dream.. i know what was my real ambition.. i know that nursing was not the thing i really want to be.. my my dream was too expensive.. and this dream must be fast.. if i get older the chance will be lower.. this dream was really from young.. but i just don't know how and where to start from.. dream? how could i make it successful.. how.. can someone tell me how.. how and where should i start from.. i really want this dream or even my ambition too come true.. i want it badly mann.. i want it!!!!! T.T

personal feeling.. i miss you badly too..

几次真的想让自己醉让自己远离那许多恩怨是非

让隐藏已久的渴望随风飞噢忘了我是谁

女人若没人爱多可悲就算是有人听我的歌会流泪

我还是真的期待有人追何必在乎我是谁

2007-09-07T08:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. long time no post.. hurhur.. actually i got alot alot alot of things wanted to say out.. but i don't know how to express out.. so i think.. i should keep it with myself than.. haiz.. so tire.. yesterday spent a night.. erm.. not really a night.. about 2-3hour to find zhi hui.. phew.. glad that she ping an go home.. this really gave us a fright mann.. as most of us had heard news.. about people went missing etc.. oh.. that really scared us.. but everything was find now.. haha..

personal feeling.. someone suggested to let you go.. some suggested to tell you the truth.. if is like that.. i would rather choose to let you go.. as telling you the truth.. i really can't do it.. as i did had phobia at it.. and alot of thing is not under my control.. soif i did tell you.. alot of things may change.. in seconds.. but letting you go.. is a bit not worth.. maybe there are still chance? but who knows mann.. don't wanna to talk any more.. you guys help me decide..

几次真的想让自己醉让自己远离那许多恩怨是非

让隐藏已久的渴望随风飞噢忘了我是谁

女人若没人爱多可悲就算是有人听我的歌会流泪

我还是真的期待有人追何必在乎我是谁

2007-09-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

yoz guys.. school holidays had started.. but it doesn't seems is like holidays.. please there is so damn many homework la.. but is true la.. after holidays EOY coming le.. so must buck up.. so i could promote to secondary 4.. so no slacking.. but i am slacking now.. don't know what the hell am i talking.. i don't think i got time to do homework.. omg.. as i am going out most of the time.. oh.. my holy shit... i need more time.. no!! cannot.. the more time i got.. i will take more advantage of myself.. NO NO NO!!! haha.. not that emo le.. to bao bei and sis.. don't be too worry le.. i think will get emo when school reopen.. so this period don't be too worry of me.. enjoy yourself than.. haha..

personal feeling.. just wanna say this(lyric of sandy lin'song):

我觉得有点累我想我缺少安慰

我的生活如此乏味生命象花一样枯萎

我整夜不能睡可能是因为烟和咖啡

如果是因为没有人陪我愿意敞开心扉

几次真的想让自己醉让自己远离那许多恩怨是非

让隐藏已久的渴望随风飞噢忘了我是谁

女人若没人爱多可悲就算是有人听我的歌会流泪

我还是真的期待有人追何必在乎我是谁

我想你说的对寂寞使人心碎

是寂寞使人心碎恋爱中的女人才美

我想我做的对我想我不会后悔

不管春风怎样吹让我先好好爱一回

2007-08-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

hi guyz.. did not post for 4days..life was still busy after common test.. alot of things are not able to control.. everything may not work against the plan.. i though life will not be so stress after common test.. no.. is not.. totally not.. many things can be form between days and hours.. sometime when the faults don't lies on you.. but in the end.. everything became your problems.. at that kind of period you will know that no one undertand you.. worst.. when people say the fault in on you.. for nothing you must be the black sheep.. nevermind.. everyone is given a liscen to angry, sad, fight for their rights, show attitude.. except for me.. i do anything nedd to see people face.. allow them to insult or use me.. i don't mind.. as i don't have the rightd to fight back.. the moment i does.. alot of peopele will start to come against me..ya.. the fact.. thats why i choose to kept everything to myself.. and present of my happy moment to you guys.. but who kows about my sorrow.. who know i am suffering.. no one.. getting emo or sad doesn't mean i care or does the thing.. as you all are not the one who were suffering.. when i am down, sad, helpless.. i got no one to turn to.. the only thing i does.. was to freak myself out of no ways.. who knows.. ya.. no one want does.. and this show that i don't care anything.. and all i did was nothing to them.. and if laying all those job there .. who will do it... no one.. ya.. someone told me this.. when you does something right.. no one praise you.. the moment you make a minor mistake.. fingers starts to point at you.. scoldings around.. people started to blame you.. i try to overcome all this.. but there will always be a limit for all this.. sometime i am really very tire.. but who can i turn to.. no one.. only myself.. i can't turn to my family, not my sis, not my bud, not my boa beis, not even my friends.. always.. and is always ALWAYS.. i facing all the problems by myself.. only myself.. i always got to face all my problems by myself.. but i seems nothing to others.. it doesn't meaning i care about the thing.. but the fact is i care about t.. i worried.. but who knows.. who knows i cried my sorrow out everynight when my family members were in their dream land.. no one.. NOT A SINGLE SOUL DOES.. sometime i felt it was unfair to me.. but yiu people will say.. so what.. is not my problem.. thats your life.. ya.. that my life.. so i got to surrender.. why must i.. it was a hard time for me.. for all of this period.. who knows.. you people only now my family members was sad about that fucking asshole women left us.. and think that i am hard enough.. so hard til i don't concern about them.. NO.. it wasn't true.. i am just pretending to be strong.. i can't cried in front of them.. as i am the eldest.. so i got to wait.. got to wait till everynight.. only in the night.. i could hide under my blanket to cry out my sorrow.. but who knows.. no one knows about it.. you guys only see the part i smiling, joking, being the clown of the day to make you guys happy.. giving you all all the entertainment i could think of.. but who gave all this to me.. no one.. NO ONE.. i only could show the real me at night.. why.. why being the eldest should face this.. idon't see my friends facing all this problem.. why everything just falls on me.. and why am i asking this stupid question, when there is no one answering to it.. ya.. you people will think i am foolish, stupid, dumb.. in fact.. i am not.. not showing the true self of mine will be better.. if i does.. my sibilings will get bullied.. if i does.. i am not be living in this world.. if it does.. i think i may not live till now.. still standing lifely in front of you guys.. stressful live had been surrounding me for years.. since i am in primary school.. since the day i got to face my family and school.. if i did show my true self.. i think i may not know you guys and i will be disappear long time ago.. that will be so nice.. i do not need to face all this fucking shit anymore.. if it does.. i had say.. sayonara.. to you guys.. long long time ago..

2007-08-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

yoz guys.. so long did not post.. due to common test.. ya.. you say you wanna give up.. ya.. we still can be friends.. but can you just don't care about my result or anything.. please.. i really want to say out sia.. but i scare those words may hurt you.. thats why i kept it for so long.. please i don't like it, when you came over to other class.. example chinese lesson.. please i am irritated by your act.. sometime you tak so loud.. please.. to others maybe nothing.. but to me you are just simply AA-ing.. may be you don't think so.. but this is how i feel.. you say you wanna give up.. ya.. then do it.. there are lot more girls outside the school you can woo for.. you are not my type.. i think i am not your type too.. i think i have given you enough chances to change.. but no progress.. so too bad.. thats it.. there are still girls, standard better than me by 100times.. but that only depends whether they want ma la.. not i wanna suan you.. but you really must change your behaviour and attitude.. and you don't have the most basic skill.. you are still not familar with girls.. all the best.. i think my words may hurt.. but i can't hide the truth.. you will not learn your mistake, when no one told you about it..

personal feeling.. emo-ing in progress..

You are my everything

Nothing your love won't bring

My life is yours alone

The only love

I've ever known

Your spirit pulls me through

When nothing else will do

Every night I pray

On bended knee

That you will always be

My everything

2007-08-20T20:25:00.001+08:00

hi guys.. left two more paper to freedom.. but i can't concentrate to study.. regret.. regret watching the video.. it really make me emo..ZZZ..

personal feelings.. watching those videos cause me sad and emo.. going to break down this few days.. i really got nothing to say.. i don't how to express ma sorrow.. i am so confuse.. the feeling was like dying.. i can't control my mind.. my head was so damn heavy.. so stress.. so i rritated.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!! dying!!!!!!!!!!..T.T

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口

隐隐作痛

你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口

也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我

变成一种问候

不如趁早放手

把爱坠落

让满地鲜红

说你爱我

变成一种折磨

不用陪我走到最后

我承担不起你的承诺

我真的承担不起你的承诺... T.T

2007-08-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

Everybody’s got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There’s no use looking back or wondering

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you know

I’ve never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on

You’ll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You’re the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory

I’ve lost all sense of time

And so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind

There’s no use looking back or wondering

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you go

I’ve never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on

You’ll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You’re the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

You’ll always be the dream that fills my head

Yes you will, say you will, you know you will

Oh baby, you’ll always be the one I know I’ll never forget

There’s no use looking back or wondering

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try I just can’t say goodbye

No no no noI’ve never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on

You’ll always be my baby

I never found the words to say (words to say)

You’re the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you

personal feeling.. 2days.. 2days le.. we did not chat for 2days le.. haiz.. so sian.. what should i do.. why am i the one always starting the topic.. and i don't dare to go too far.. as i had phobia for going too direct.. that lesson means alot to me.. haha..

2007-08-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. life seems unchange.. everyday study.. eat .. sleep.. exam.. =.=.. so sian sia..so stress.. why must we have exam..use project work and judge la.. we don't need to stress so much.. you teachers do not need to mark so many paper.. omg.. going siao.. over stress... so sian sia.. may die of sianzation.. haha.. ZZZ.. and today tution was kind of irritated.. sian half..ZZZ.. omfg..ZZZ could i have a better life...ZZZ.. mother fooker.. i am so hungry now.. wanna eat something.. wish there was a big pot of curry in front of me.. later going to eat with ah ma.. time faster come.. than i can eat..ZZZ..

personal feeling.. so glad that i manage to chat with you the past two days.. but i wish that it could be everyday.. i would be so happy mann.. haha.. but alot of thing was not under my control.. wait for fate? omg sia..

本来不觉得你特别疼我, 直到你不再疼爱我以后.

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口, 隐隐作痛.

你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口, 也让我精神腐朽.

2007-08-10T21:26:00.000+08:00

My heart says we've got something real

Can I trust the way I feel

Cuz my heart's been through it before

Am I'm just seeing what I want to see

Or is it true

Could you really be

Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know

Before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

(Who warns) my ups and downs

So tell me now

Before I fall in love

And I'm at the point of no return

So afraid of getting burned

But I wanna take a chance

Oh please

Give me a reason to believe

Say you're the one that you'll always be

Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soulI need to know

Before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

(Who warns) my ups and downs

So tell me now

Before I fall in love

It's been so hard for me

To give my heart away

But I would give my everything

Just to hear you say...

Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know

Before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

(Who warns) my ups and downs

So tell me now

Before I fall in love

when i was with you.. i felt so secure.. when i need you.. you will be there.. but you still will disappear sometimes.. i think i had fall in love with you.. i am so sure as i have this feeling before.. this feeling was so true.. as you had hold my heart and soul.. you are there when i am down.. sometime your cute face really make my day.. eventhough is hard to chat with you.. your maturity makes me felt so secure.. when i was down.. i just wish that i could rest into your embrace.. when i felt weak.. i wish you could hold me into your arms.. don't ever allow me to slip through.. i really love you.. what about you.. i really want to know your answer as soon as possible.. so i do not need to wait on msn to get the chance to chat with you... i will wait for your answer.. i think i had make a right choice to like a older guy.. smile..

2007-08-10T10:34:00.000+08:00

hahahaha.. i am back... 8 august when for 24hour basketball match.. haha.. was tire.. -.-.. we really have fun.. although we lost all the matches.. is so great to play with miss may.. it seems that we had gone back to the past.. so fun.. so memorable.. miss them so much.. miss that period that we play at the LSBC it was fun.. saw some of the seniors there to.. after the match with miss may.. we go take lunch.. after that go support our school netball team.. ai ya.. not really school.. is the seniors they all.. they did not manage to get into top4.. but they did very well le.. netball is quite interesting too.. haha.. they also quite aggressive.. haha.. after that.. ah bud accompany to do the JEA thingy.. we find our way like siao.. as ashley told me art house = art museum.. -.-.. den we walk all the way from the art museum to art house..ZZZ.. is far de sia.. we eat dinner le.. than continue our 'duty'.. there was so many people there.. so crowded.. we sweat all too although we only spend time with our mentors for 3periods.. that make it so meaningful and memorable for us.. will miss them de.. T.T..

personal feeling.. life was down.. yesterday saw those blue fireworks.. emo emo.. don't know why.. just emo.. thanks alot for you guan xing.. about my gastric pain.. i very very appreciated with it.. but i still will emo.. don't know why.. 在你耳边轻轻说出最后的要求, 不要对她说出一样的话, 别说你多晚都会等她的电话, 因为这些是我仅有残留的梦. 我愿忍受折磨, 独自去拥有曾经的温柔.

2007-08-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

OMG.. today was a damn fucking day.. irritated by that stupid fucking asshole.. omg.. please this is not cheat.. bluff and cheat is different.. you bluff de teacher is not me.. and don't ever drag me into your picture.. please i say before.. i will not or never ever like a guy who do not have any trust worthy.. and for what i need to forgive you.. who you think you are.. you are not my buddy or anthing or even anybody.. you think you are guilty than you got apologise to those teacher whom you lie to.. next everyone willhave a choice to do things.. if you don't want go bukit chandu.. you can just stay back and do your duty right.. oh.. so you think that pontang very brave ar.. very shen yong ar.. like gang leader ar.. please that was crap.. piece of shit.. so if you are the person who go.. oh you find it very weird ar.. than you follow other people la.. please.. to me you are just their follower.. and being a follower will only let people kan bu qi.. don't have own decision, own thinking.. OMFG.. i can only say you are damn shi bai.. and can you just 07092105 1514 1305..

personal feeling.. i am still waiting.. you try to get chance to talk to you.. but wish you can talk to me like the past.. just saw you on saturday.. but i wish i caould see you everyday.. hehe..其實我非常愛你不想失去你, 難道我沒有權利說我不願意..

2007-08-05T17:03:00.000+08:00

yoz guys.. yesterday was tire mann.. wear the stupid heels.. than got to walk around with that. omg.. is pain de ok.. than last minutes call me go stage..-.-.. cos miss solartri don't want murni to wear pants.. yesterday also quite fun.. i accidently say our mrs pek nickname(given by me.. and is called xiao bai).. then mdm heng, miss portial tan, mr ti, miss lai and mdm yang all heard.. if mrs pek knows it.. i think i am going to die.. but is fun ya.. haha..

personal feeling.. yesterday you did come.. haha.. dress quite formal.. look like a man.. diao what am i talking about.. you are a guy what..-.-!!.. but quite nice.. haha.. so happy.. but only got to talk to you awhile nia.. ZZZ.. k thats all..感动越是深刻, 寂寞就越伤人, 每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕..

yoku kuchi ni shite iru

yoku yume ni mite iru

yoku futari katattari shite iru

"shiawase ni naritai" tte

mou nando me ni naru n darou

ittai nani ga hoshikute

ittai nani ga fuman de

ittai doko e mukau no to ka tte

kikarete mo kotae nante

mochiawasete'nai kedo ne

2007-08-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian.. school was fine.. after school play badminton with ah bud.. mush mush.. ah wei.. shi hui.. mush mush very pro.. haha.. tomorrow got duty for achievers day.. ZZZ.. gonna wear heels again.. OMG.. i don't want!!!... tomorrow you guys can see a penguin walking around SPCC... hahaha.. k thats for today..

personal feeling.. nothing.. god ws unfair.. haha.. how could things be so perfect and fair.. impossible right.. i don't know WTF i am thinking of.. i wounder do i make the wrong decision.. but the other choice was not the thing i want.. everything ws so messy now.. we seldom chat nowadays.. on msn u ask me about CCA.. u called me.. just ask me for your item.. argh.. no longer like the past.. i feel gaps between us..it was getting bigger and bigger.. i don't want this to go on.. i need you to stop it.. just go back to the simple and to me is sweet de life..

tsurai toki dare ga soba ni ite kurete

dare no kata de namida o nagashita?

yorokobi wa dare to wakeatte

dare to te o toriatte kita?

omoidashite iru yo

futari hanarete sugoshita yoru wa

tsuki ga tooku de naite ita yo

futari hanarete sugoshita yoru wa

tsuki ga tooku de naite'ta

2007-08-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. today is dad's birthday.. haha.. i bought cake and chanpaign.. ah wei bought a birthday card.. little bro was the boss of the day.. he treated us dinner.. evrything was so fine.. this prove to the TT women.. we still had a happy life after you left.. oh.. this may make you regret i think.. we will continue like that.. please wake up from your fairy tale mann.. today..ZZZ.. be the MC for the china students.. saw some of the china friends.. but forgotten their name.. the programme was still alright.. haha.. MC is also a difficult task.. must smile and eye contact with the audience.. phew.. tomorrow got chinese paper1.. should be today but got the MC thingy so postpone to tomorrow.. great day mann.. hehe..

personal feeling.. after choosing the path..seems like god is fooling me mann.. i don't why i felt afraid.. feeling that i am gonna to lose you.. i am so scare.. we chat at 8.05pm yet.. we end conversation at 8.09pm.. last time we could chat all the way to late night.. we still chat on phone sometimes.. but now.. everything seems so weird mann.. too weird..我是真的真的真的很爱你, 以为付出了一切就非得有意义.but i am wrong..

说你爱我

变成一种问候

不如趁早放手

把爱坠落让满地鲜红

说你爱我

变成一种折磨

不用陪我走到最后

我承担不起你的承诺

2007-07-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

yoz guys.. OMG.. felt so irritated and annoyed in school.. this few day.. by someone.. ah bud, ah wei and mel.. think jue ying bao bei also knew about it.. omg.. so damn irritating la.. don't know how to say.. argh!!! i really don't like people to k-po my stuff.. and my daily life.. if i wanna say.. i sure will say de ma.. ask ask ask.. argh!!!.. sick and tire.. ah bud also complaint about that person la.. WTH.. argh!! don't talk about it le la.. fed-up!!... when bukit chandu.. okok la.. oour bus was late for 30min.. all 3e2 girls.. kana mosquitos bites.. me myself kana 9 bites le lor.. WTH.. plus weather is hot and was so damn boring.. then Aw, jess and me.. haha.. the entertainment of the day.. we dance the tai ke wu(those taiwan people dance de).. so damn funny la.. haha..

personal feeling.. i can tell you which path i am going le.. ah bud know too.. i can confirm tell you all liao.. hahaha.. but will not say out now.. after common test or end- year then tell other close one.. hehehe...

Aoi sora o tomo ni yukou yo

Shiroi sunahama o mioroshi nagara

Muzukashii hanashi wa ira nai

Kimi ga waratte kure reba ii

Sou itte boku ni warai kaketa

2007-07-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

today got JEA thingy.. got training in the morning.. with boys..=.=!! ahwei did not go.. as the TT woman come..it was tire.. as i rush home then when back to school again.. talk to jue ying bao bei quite alot of things.. she also emo emo.. haiz..

personal feeling.. yesterday.. saw ya.. same as before.. firstly, it was so sweet and surprise.. it just last for less than 30min.. and you left again.. i don't know when i could see you again.. actually you are fading from my memories.. but why god just want you to appear at this time.. why god wanna to fool me n you.. oh or rather is me.. if is like that.. i rather hide away from you.. means(just say hello thats all..) and kept you all the way down my heart.. i think after you had fade.. between the path.. i know which path i should step on le..

Kimi no chinmoku ga nagaku tsuzuke ba tsuzuku hodo ni

Koe ni naranai sakebi ga kikoeru you de

Mune ga harisake sou
Doushite konna ni watashi wa hidoku muryoku de oroka de

Tsunaida hazu no te sae mo mamoru koto ga dekinai
Nee itsuka yurushite hoshii to wa iwanai

Sou kimi ga ima hitori no nara

Sore koso ga watashi e no aizu tashikana

2007-07-26T20:54:00.000+08:00

today P.E..played ruby.. it was fun.. but something happen to the girls in between of the game.. don't say le.. just now bake cookie.. out of shape..=.=!!.. but still taste good.. after baking i was so tire.. tire until emo.. don't like it sia.. then water drip down.. haiz.. chat with xin min.. she make my day mann.. love her loads.. so brave sia.. haha..

personal feeling.. we do not come from a different world.. however.. we could get so close.. but the distance seems to be so far.. too far.. so far that i can't even catch your shadow.. means.. i will never catch you.. as no one could ever catch a shadow.. 我们的距离，已有大海那么宽了.. 我们的缘分已到了尽头?

Nokosareta tooi mukashi no

Kizuato ga uzukidashite mata

Furueteru kokoro kakushite

Hohoemi ni suri kaeta
Ikutsu ni natte mo aikawarazu na watashi wa

Ima demo okubyou de

Tsuyogaru koto bakari oboete yuku

2007-07-24T20:10:00.000+08:00

choice.. before we do anything there will be a choice.. however.. it was difficult for us to make a choice on relationship, school and society.. we will get stuck when there's time for us to make a choice.. however.. when there's no choice for us.. we humans will start groaning and complaint.. why there are so many hurdles in life.. why god can't give us a smooth path.. having hurdles will make us grow.. but having too much.. it makes life tiring and difficult.. no matter how strong we are.. 1 day i will still fall.. my wall are weaken.. i need some polishing and painting.. i wish you will be the one to gave mme moral support..
personal feeling.. to what i had tell bao bei jue ying.. keeping things to myself may not be the right choice.. but i can't find a better choice.. yup.. thats life ba.. like what ah bud say.. life had lots of hurdles.. it just too bad.. i am getting sick and tire about the lively craps.. i need you boy.. but you just seems that you don't understand..
永远要记得, 那天彼此许下的承诺, 瞬间点亮的火花是我们的拥有.

2007-07-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

sad.. sian.. got nothing to say.. so disappointed.. the girls seems quite please with today training.. ya.. that was good.. yup..

personal feeling.. life seems to be miserable nowadays.. life kinda sucks too.. i want a break mann.. i want to go oversea.. especially japan and korea.. their sceneries are very nice and romantic.. when will i get that chance.. a chance i could relax.. a chance i could take a big breath of the Autumn's air.. i am sick and tire of summer.. it seems joyful but it make people to get furstrated.. weather humid.. increase of dengue..ZZZ.. i don't mind staying in both winter and spring.. winter brought sadness.. as the cold wind is kinda hurt to the heart.. there's kinda painful.. spring.. it seems joyful.. but sadness was still along.. all the 4 season.. i just hate summer.. alot.. i love Autumn.. brings romance and sadness.. just what i want..

我就是拉不到你的手, 因为我活在西界, 只拥有半个白天, 一到午后夜色就蔓延, 虽然和你面对面却看不到我的脸, 感觉到你不安的视线, 暗自祈祷上天的垂怜, 在长夜的边缘, 给我一丝光线, 让你能多看我一眼.

2007-07-22T09:57:00.000+08:00

hi.. today did not go for dance.. the kids going interact section.. as i have tution in the afternoon.. so cannot attend the interact section.. do homework at home.. haven't start yet..=.=!! got flu..ZZZ.. yesterdat got the JEA thingy.. quite fun.. we manage to watch the fireworks.. quite nice.. miss those days we having NDP.. haha.. so fun.. hee.. k.. got to go.. ki-o tsukete ne...

personal feeling.. i think.. your image is going to be faded.. although.. there still have weird feelings.. maybe i used to it too long le..give me somemore time.. sooner or later i think i could forget you.. than i will left two pathway for me to choose.. yup.. wanna tell u this:

我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错, 我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容, 为什么连谎言你也刺破

Kimi no sono jiyuu ga mabushi sugiru

To yuu shoujo ni

Sonzai suru imi sura mitsuke rare naku temo

To kotaeta

Soko ga moshi kono yo no hate demo

Hito ga muda da to waratte mo

Tomo ni ikou akirameru yori mo

Kowai koto nado nai no dakara

2007-07-20T15:18:00.000+08:00

School was fine today.. only got three subject.. laugh.. the wushu is quite nice.. but s kinda bored too.. training was cancel.. coach twist his elbow..kexkex.. sian sia.. later going out with ah tan and other guys.. watch movie..ZZZ.. die hard 4.0 sia.. don't know nice ma... the China students are coming.. ZZZ.. nothing more to say le.. stop here.. take care guys..

personal feelings.. so weird of me.. i am quite high in school but whenever i goes home.. i became low.. i don't know what am i thinking of.. life seems so weird to me.. after you left.. eventhough no one notice.. but i can feel it.. i keep having illusion of you when i was outside shopping or doing stuff.. so long did not saw ya.. going crazy... ZZZ.. think so..

我总是一个人走, 心里却充满空洞, 用太多借口来弥补寂寞, 却无法找回自由.

爱曾经擦身而过, 喜欢在记忆里停留, 习惯搜寻你的, 只要你就足够, 原来我们一直曾在那, 最美的时候.

你熟悉的温柔从不曾离开我, 在我眼里看到什么全部都是你的笑容, 我终于明白你一定会是我幸福的执着.

这一次我不会放手, 你熟悉的温柔从没有离开我, 在我眼里看到什么全部都是你的笑容, 我终于知道你一定就是我幸福的执着, 这一次我不会放手.

感觉不曾变过, 时间不再转动就为了你和我, 你熟悉的温柔从不曾离开我,在你心底看到拥有, 你也一直在等着我, 再多的语言也很难去表达这一份承诺, 我不会放手我要勇敢的爱着你.

2007-07-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

sian.. today morning damn sian.. yesterday hear the radio.. i found out that ayumi hamasaki broke up with her boyfriend tomoya nagase.. 7 years of relationship just ended like that.. so sad.. it is so surprising.. all of her fans thought they were engaged.. but now? the result was they were broke up.. wish they could patch back again.. haiz.. 7 years sia.. haiz.. HAMASAKI GAMBATEH NE!!!.. your new album coming out le.. GAMBATEH!!!.. all the best.. just now accompany ah bud go play ball with joshua and zombie.. haha.. kinda fun.. zomb and josh left first.. than we play with ah bud friend.. surprisingly we saw hua ping and his classmates.. we continue play lor.. play untill 530.. zzz..

personal feeling.. kinda sad by ayu situation.. haiz.. makes me think of the pass.. kanashii.. ayu GAMBATEH!!!.. will support you all the way.. =)

dou ka kono inori o

hane no nai tenshi ga

afurete'ru jidai de

kimi ni moshi tsubasa ga

nokosarete'nakute mo

boku ni mada tsubasa ga

hitotsu dake nokotte iru kara

isshoni...isshoni...

2007-07-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

bleah.. today got training.. so suang mann.. but.. girls you all must buck-up sia.. all of people wanna give up you all sia.. work hard can.. i don't wish to be disappointed again.. after training ah bud go watch movie with ah wei.. while i go out with mel.. meet mel.. we go eat first than go buy our stuff.. she bought a'school' shoes.. OMG.. found that.. her right foot was bigger than her left foot.. and the saleman said her feet had quite big different in size.. i found the guy was abit gay.. haha.. than we saw Deon and his friends.. however, today spend quite alot.. ZZZ.. when the 'TT woman' is coming.. i am going to broke!!! need money.. same to ah wei..=.=!! today was the last ep of 'condor hero'.. T.T... so sad.. eventhough it had a happy ending.. i wanna buy the VCD!!!.. the stupid ch U go cut until very cham.. make the show so dumb la.. ZZZ..

personal feeling.. VERY SAD!!!!! VERY VERY SAD!!!!!! watashiwa kanashii.. haiz.. just sad for no reason..

Hajimete atta hi wo Ima mo oboeteiru?

Tereta you ni kimi wa utsumuite

Me wo sorashite bakari datta ne

Sono shigusa wo totemo

Itoshiku omou you ni

Natta no wa itsu no goro datta kana

Nanda ka natsukashii ne

2007-07-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

Woo- Hoo.. today school was kinda fine.. only thing was.. Dr. Lau & Mdm Chan was kinda manopause sia.. mdm chan was kinda worst.. haha.. school was like having carnival today.. netball got friendly, soccer also got friendly.. Basketball also.. their game was okok.. me the timer.. got abit dangerous sia.. as i very blur.. haha.. sian la.. wear jersey today.. mainpoint: wanna to be tann.. but no progress sia.. sian.. ZZZ..

personal feeling.. saw ya today... after some incident.. got abit suan suan de feeling.. don't WTH am i thinking.. i had not forget the who.. now again.. what am i doing.. i need a brain wash.. always think those irrelevant stuff.. haiz..

asa yo douka watashi wo hayaku mukae ni kite

yowasa wo kakushikirenaku naru mae ni

anata ga inai dake de konna ni

yoru ga samishii nante fushigi ne

ato dono kurai onaji you na

tsumi wo okashite kurikaeshitara

watashi wa hito de nakunatte shimau no darou

dare no me ni mo utsuranaku naru no darou

2007-07-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

bleah.. today feel like fainting sia.. sleep too much.. brain had not wake up.. plus got flu.. and that had ruin my day.. as i keep sneezing.. =.=!! today maths lesson was quite diao.. when miss tan write the register nos.. whole class keep quite.. than she think our class is kinda odd.. but the fact is.. no one knows how to answer.. haha.. girls got match today.. lose.. never mind.. try harder next year.. wish that you all had learn a lesson from inter-school.. next.. mushroom.. why you don't believe in those things.. please is real ok.. students life is important.. you want to have a try?. is ok you try to stay overnight in school.. than one person walk around.. see you scare ma.. please.. this had happen.. dn treat that it is any illusion.. there is so many witness lor.. what you want mann.. school budget is not important lor.. students live ok.. please.. don't be so self-fish can.. if you don't believe why you still pray.. WTH you want mann.. you really want to wait things happen, than take action? tell you.. by that time everything is too late mann.. please... take action now..

personal feeling.. think of ways to forget you.. is time to give other a chance.. but i am still try.. yea.. take care mann.. you will still make me sad even you are not around.. still will miss you.. but i will keep you some where down my heart..

kimi no kudake chitta yume no hahen ga

boku no mune o sashite

wasurete wa ikenai itami toshite kizamareteku

hana no you ni hakanai no nara

kimi no moto de sakihokoru deshou

soshite egao mitodoketa ato

sotto hitori chitteyuku deshou

2007-07-10T19:48:00.000+08:00

was tired.. slept quite last night.. go watch campus with carmen.. quite nice.. wake up around 430am.. Oh mann is tired de.. going PMS le.. cause got frustrated easily.. kinda mood swing.. but not that bad.. haha.. school ok today.. girls got match.. lost.. but is ok.. jia you next time.. school is kinda eerie nowadays.. dirty things keep appearing.. OMG mann.. mushroom.. can you please hire some sai gong to chant ma.. really eerie la.. it happen 4 times liao sia.. it was like continuous de mann.. plus the got 2 or more i think.. than 1 of them gone into 3 people body mann.. OMG.. mushroom.. budget is not the main cause.. the saftey of the students are more important.. san si ar..

personal feeling.. bleah.. no time emo.. tire tire tire.. wanna sleep!!!.. so sleepy..=.=!!! happy thing!! ayu's glitter/fated is coming out!!!.. haha!!!

Daijoubu da tte iikikasete

Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru

Nageyari da tte iu n ja naku te

Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

Furueru te o kakushita no wa

Doujou ga samu sugiru kara

Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no

Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai

Sore nara isso minai furi shite

Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

2007-07-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

bleah.. just come back from tution.. mr teo was kinda good today.. he bought us chocolate.. haha.. wish my english would improve after going tution.. got to speak more english.. =.=... just finish the SCs' investiture proposal.. ZZZ.. i think my white hair had increase after doing that..ZZZ.. so sian mann.. haven do homework.. gonna rush.. the return of condor hero is going to end.. T.T.. so sad.. zzz.. k nothing much to say le.. gonna eat!!!

personal feeling.. something is amiss mann.. i am so down after reading your post.. why am i sad.. i not sure.. i should be happy right.. as i had waited for 1 and 1/2 months.. haiz.. just now watch ayu's dearest live.. omg.. is kinda sad.. T.T.. her song really touch.. and her more of her lyrics is really showing me what i feel now.. haiz..

Kimi no koe ga kikoeta you na ki ga shite

Boku wa futo tachidomatta n da

Iru wake ga nai koto wa wakatte iru noni

Soredemo sagashi tsuzuketa n da

Kimi ga ita ano kisetsu wa nani yori mo mabushikute

Me ni utsuru mono subete ga kagayaki ni michite ita

Bokutachi wa itsu no hi kara motome sugite shimatta no

Tada soba ni iru dake de sore dake de yokatta hazu na noni ne

Kimi ni nita yokogao o tooku michi no mukou

Mitsuketa you na kiga shita kedo

Boku wa mou tachidomaru koto o sezu ni

Mae o muite aruki tsuzuketa

Kimi to ita ano kisetsu wa nani yori mo mijikakute

Me ni utsuru mono subete ga itooshiku kanjite ita

Bokutachi wa nani o nokoshi nani o ushinatta no kana

Soshite sore wa ato dorehodo toki ga tateba uketomerareru no kana

2007-07-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

just got training..=.=.. a lame one.. nothin much to talk about that.. Woo.. shawn just pass me ayu's secret album.. monday pay you the money.. thanks alot.. well.. ayu's museum 30th single collection is very difficult to find.. got a bit disappointed.. but never mind la.. thanks alot.. k nothing much to told about liao.. monday got to hand in proposal.. but i seems like still slacking.. got to get up to work!!=.=..

personal feeling.. hey you know I miss you so .. I didn't know you had to go.. We had enough of our distance baby before I had the chance to say.. I may staying with you for the rest of my life.. Don't keep telling me these words.. You don't know how much it hurts.. And I'll promise you eternity　if you promise me your stay But now it's too late..I may go on without you..I'm like a bird who's lost your wings..a fire without its flame..I don't know how to be strong..when my love has to move on...(edit from JJ's song..) now my feeling is like that.. haiz..

Ayu's dearest:

ai subeki mono no tame

ai o kureru mono no tame

dekiru koto

Ah deatta ano koro wa

subete ga bukiyou de

toomawari shita yo ne

kizu tsukeatta yo ne

Ah itsu ka eien no

nemuri ni tsuku hi made

dou ka sono egao ga

taema naku aru yo ni

2007-07-06T19:34:00.000+08:00

today stay back to plan for the upcoming event.. SC investiture.. bleah.. stay back until 5plus than go home.. most of the group members are not available.. so only got shu han.. my bao bei-jueying.. shawn.. and my 2nd bao bei- jessica stay back and help us.. we gonna re-think for everything.. as our mindmap is lost.. diao.. monday must ive proposal.. quite rush.. but think we can la.. yup.. k nothing much le..

personal feeling.. finally.. you finally post.. finally.. i have waited for 1month.. finally.. you got some movement le.. i think i should be happy.. but i am not.. i got down.. emo emo... haiz.. i really want to meet you mann.. i really miss that period.. when you are around.. things are different now.. my heart so empty..

kyou ga totemo kanashikute

asu moshi mo naite ite

mosonna hibi ga atta ne to

waraeru hi ga kuru darou

2007-07-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

sian ar.. tire!!.. do the stupid english thingy.. by the way.. toilet members.. our toilet is success.. haha.. thanks for all of your hard work.. thanks to other helpers also.. thank you so much.. haha.. nothing much to talk about..

personal feeling.. i can tolerate le.. i really miss you that much.. really.. what happen to me mann.. i can forget that person in a month i think.. but why can't i forget you.. this make me feel worst only mann.. Oh no!!.. god please help me.. reality is so curel mann.. Ayu you are right.. especially you came across this words.. L.O.V.E.. i agree with this sentence.. you will not cherish things, untill one day you really lost it.. like what i did.. i did not cherish for the past 5 months.. i am so regret.. 1month pass.. haiz.. you left for 1 month le.. next.. i miss my 'mum'.. not the real one.. =.=.. wish that she is doing well.. =)

dou ka kono inori o

hane no nai tenshi ga

afurete'ru jidai de

kimi ni moshi tsubasa ga

nokosarete'nakute mo

boku ni mada tsubasa ga

hitotsu dake nokotte iru kara

isshoni...isshoni...

2007-07-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

haha.. toilets done!!!.. thank you my dearest bao bei(jue ying), my twin brother(PJ), my dearest jeesica and the cleverest ever de wei si li(wesley).. haha.. ya.. but is really fake.. all last minute work.. but thank you Mr tan EW.. he say the toilet is nice.. he is so much better than so la ji n the onli and bull dog.. Opps.. haha.. today is so tire don't know why.. so sleepy in class.. bleah.. nothing much happen today.. so lets end..

personal feeling... sad sad sad.. basketball sad.. and your leaving make me sad.. emo emo.. haiz.. time is too short.. and yet there are so many meomries.. that i could saw it everywhere.. sadness.. everywhere.. T.T..

bokutachi wa toki ni

doushiyou mo nai

ayamachi wo okashi

sono uchi ni sukoshi

fukan ni naru

boukansha gotoku

maru de nani mo nakatta you na

kao wo shite arukidasu

dakedo kyou mo

oboeteiru

tatakai wa owaranai

kitto dare mo ga ai wo mamoru tame datta

2007-07-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

WooHoo.. the guys win today.. 28-36.. not bad not bad.. jia you boys.. haha.. just now in schooll. do the toilet thing.. zzz.. sian de lor.. haha.. we pluck the tape den paste agai.. scholl is so fake sia.. people come take picture than put.. when no one come.. the toilet was untidy.. dotts mann.. today in school nothing special happen.. class got celebration.. Miss Tan KK.. you still own me $22.. i got to pay my friend.. harry potter is coming out.. can't wait to watch.. haha.. and guess what.. 'Emma Watson' is getting preetier.. haha.. all the best to her mann.. guess she wanna to be a singer i think.. not very sure.. flash back to their first harry potter movie.. omg.. they are so damn young and cute la.. haha.. they are becoming grown-ups le.. haha.. why harry did not go with hermioni(don't know how to spell).. disappointer mann.. haha..

personal feeling time.. hmm.. nowadays quite busy.. got toilet stuff and upcoming de investiture.. still kinda sad sometime.. that makes me can't concetrate on doing words.. illusions kept coming.. bleah.. sayonara guys.. takecare..

yoku kuchi ni shite iru

yoku yume ni mite iru

yoku futari katattari shite iru

"shiawase ni naritai" tte

mou nando me ni naru n darou

ittai nani ga hoshikute

ittai nani ga fuman de

ittai doko e mukau no to ka tte

kikarete mo kotae nante

mochiawasete'nai kedo ne

senaka osu shunkan ni

wasurenaide ite

kono natsu koso wa to

kawashita yakusoku o

2007-07-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

haha.. just come back from the trip.. haha.. today was fun.. when to get present for my 'mum', phew.. that really coat me lots.. almost 100..haha.. the most expensive present i ever bought.. haha.. although the 'transfomer' show was abit sian.. is noisy.. and seeing robots fighting around.. some lame joke in it.. plus a black women point a her middle finger...hurxhurx.. but after the show was fun.. we rush to toilet and pee.. than slack outside the wallet shop.. not knowing what are we going to do.. haha.. than shawn disapper.. we also don't know where the hell he go.. than the stupid nath call him.. tell him i faint!.. i was what the hell.. than still say i go hospital and etc.. the shawn was stupid enough to believe them.. than the guys head to mos burger to have their dinner.. i do my english and physic homework there.. thanks mel and jess for helping.. haha.. after thery are done.. we when to take mrt home.. on the way they talk about the story of nath got stuck to the mrt door.. i as laughing hell.. all the way to clementi.. thats really funny.. laugh until my stomache and tears flowing out.. HAHAHAHA.. thats really funny.. if that day i were there.. sure laugh like siao.. hahaha.. today really fun.. miss our naughty class.. haha.. miss mr ng bk too.. he is a good teacher mann..haha.. tomorrow got toilet stuff.. his week is busy mann.. haha.. takecare guys.. cya.. haha..

2007-07-02T08:30:00.000+08:00

WooHoo.. yesterday.. tution was quite fun.. the teacher is lame enough.. joke during lesson.. but we still get to do work.. he is much more better den dr. lau mann.. onl 2hours of lesson.. but that was great.. however, in dr. lau lesson her 1period can give a feeling of 1 hour, her 2hours seems to me is almost the whole day.. but nowadays she is quite good.. yeah.. haha.. still got homework undone.. maybe later or what.. going out with mel, jess maybe got kishon, nath and i van ba.. haha.. got watch movie.. not sure watching what.. maybe is 'Transformer' ba.. haha.. why there is not sad movie.. i wanna watch mann.. than can cry.. haha.. as i only cried when i watch' nada sou sou'. not fun sia.. drama also can.. bleah.. haha..

personal feeling.. cannot stop thinking of you.. especially your eyes.. 1 month mann.. i last time can forget a person in a short while.. why can't i forget you.. maybe you are such a nice person ba.. we had not see each other for so long mann.. i wounder what have you been doing mann.. miss ya lots.. alot mann.. T.T..

shinjiraresou na mono mitsukattara

kanarazu te o nobashite miyou

kurikaeshi kurikaeshi iikikaseru yo

"hanarete'te mo mune no oku de tomodachi da yo"

to ah bud..

zutto mataseta kedo yagate toki ga tatte itta nara

hoka no dare ni mo makenai saikou no naka ni natte itai

fukai kizuna ga dekiru to inotte

ahligatou gosaimas de!!!

2007-07-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

haha.. still got 1 hour and 30min.. haha.. i am going to have english tuition!!! so excited.. haha.. so long did nt have any tution le.. now is a new start.. haha.. must study hard mann.. get good result and go be a nurse.. haha.. but that is not really my dream.. nurse i my 3rd choice for my future.. but at the mean time i will try to use long school holidays to fulfill my first dream.. well 2nd dream is kinda hard for me.. if i aim for that.. i tink i must put in more effort to study liao..zzz.. which will make me siao.. to prevent going IMH.. think better not.. haha.. must pass english!!!.. nowadays find dr. lau is kind of kind mann.. she isn't so mean than the past.. wounder is her menopause period had gone or what.. haha.. but still a good thing.. wish she still can carry on at this situation.. i think i will get interest in english ba.. haha.. now the problem is physic.. Oh mann!!! i really cannot understand what mr. tan is talking mann.. haiz.. that one ar slowly try ba.. haha.. just now got dance.. valen is so naughty today.. too bad he still a baby.. so all 40 of us get scolded because of him..zzz.. but he still cute haha.. still got homework undaone.. maybe tomorrow than do.. haha..

personall feeling.. heart still pain.. after 1 month of healing.. it seems no pogress mann.. coming of two months le.. i try to get lots of things to do.. so i can forget you.. but no.. i can't.. but more stress on me only.. i want to stop thinking of you.. but simply i can't.. watch ' the return of the condor hero'.. i think.. sleep i think.. still got 1 time.. nothing.. don't say anymore.. that will only bbring me sadness.. i think.. me and you should look into the future ba or maybe me only ba.. only thing can be done is rely on fate ba.. whether we could see each other again.. haiz..

ittai nani wo kitai shiteru to iu no

nigirishimeteru denwa ga furueru tabi

ichiichi mune ga takanatte

demo sugu ni tameiki ni kaete

mou nando kurikaeshi

kuru wake nai itsuka nante kotoba

itsu made shinjiteru tsumori

nee wasurete shimaeba ii

sukoshi yumemite ita dake datte

kiseki nante okoru wake mo

nai koto kurai wakatteru noni

wakatteru noni

2007-06-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

wa.. tire.. morning got wake up by my bro.. so early mann.. sleep at 12 wake up at 5plus.. he wanna go cycle.. den wake me up to prepare him.. dotts.. den i can went into sleep liao..zzz.. den i listen to radio.. heard some nice song but dunno the lyrics.. than around 10plus go play ball will bud and my sibilings... haha.. dunno where is the place.. jus blindly follow.. the sun was big at around 1plus.. zzz trying to tann myself.. but nothing much happen to my skin.. zzz.. but pq got sun burn sia.. so xian mu.. haha.. than we go JE take our lunch.. and we go home.. pq when to find my son.. yeepee.. AYUMI HAMASAKI new album coming out.. gonna buy.. haha.. tonight got "the return of condor hero"again.. is nice.. wanna watch.. but at the same time got harry potter sia.. sian half.. tomorrow is my first tution day.. this term gonna work hard le.. as i dun wan to retain.. must jia you... haha..

personal feeling.. just now on the bus.. the bus uncle is blow kuo shao.. at first i felt very irritating.. but after that i felt a bit of sadness.. dunno why.. thing too much ba.. haha.. i really miss you alot.. only can look at your picture to cut down my pain.. haiz..

问世间情是何物直教人生死相许

天南地北双飞客老翅几回寒暑.. haiz.. haiz..

Nokosareta tooi mukashi no

Kizuato ga uzukidashite mata

Furueteru kokoro kakushite

Hohoemi ni suri kaeta

Ikutsu ni natte mo aikawarazu na watashi wa

Ima demo okubyou de

Tsuyogaru koto bakari oboete yuku

Tsutaetai omoi wa afureru no ni

Nee umaku kotoba ni naranai

Anata ni deatte inakereba konna

Modokashii itami sae mo shiranakatta ne

Sukoshi zutsu mitome hajimeta

Iyasarenu kako no sonzai to

Kobamenai mirai ni ikura

Obiete mo shikata ga nai to

2007-06-29T20:12:00.000+08:00

today girls got match.. well done.. even we lose.. really not bad.. jia you again k.. haha.. today quite buay song.. bud know.. haha.. don't say angry things le.. haha.. girls you all got to work harder.. wish you all can have better skill next year and do better.. just treat this west zone as a learning lesson.. you all still got 3 years more to go.. still can improve.. jia you k.. give you all, all my moral support.. you all give me a little xi wang.. i will give my very best to take care of you all.. jia you.. two more match to go!!!.. KAMBATEH!!!.. all the best.. hee..

personal feeling.. still can't get you out of mind.. i really want to see you mann.. just once i will be happy enough.. yesterday i really mistaken someone as you mann.. haiz.. maybe too long did not saw you le.. kinda miss.. haiz.. wish you can come back someday... hmmm...

Daijoubu da tte iikikasete

Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru

Nageyari da tte iu n ja naku te

Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

Furueru te o kakushita no wa

Doujou ga samu sugiru kara

Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no

Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai

Sore nara isso minai furi shite

Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

Imasara kireigoto da nante

Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai

Itami wa fueru ippou darou

Nara ba uketomete iku made sa

2007-06-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

today.. quite sian.. hate the stupid and irritating 1310.. she is so damn the sux mann.. only know how to suan people.. she her self very good meh.. shake my ass off mann.. stupid idiot.. the only person who will pollute my world.. zzz... she think she is so great mann.. wth.. she think she got the knowledge of everything.. her best item is 'blow cow'.. you know what is 'blow cow'.. explanation time: 'blow cow' means.. cow is very heavy.. if a person could do it just by a blow.. omg that is impossible la.. so is very obvious that the person is boasting.. but actually he or she cannot do it..zzz..

omg.. wish really this will be my first and last time to meet this kind of buay bah people.. she is so damn the buay bah la.. worst of the worst!!!.. bleah.. no medicine can cure.. in chinese.. jiang shan yi gai, ben xing nan yi.. explanational time: no matter how you change.. your bad habit still will be there..zzz..

but that person mouth say she got change.. please la blind people also can see that you don't any progress la.. dotts.. OH! or maybe i really hate you too much.. so i say you until so jia lat.. but this is the fact too bad.. maybe i really hate you.. so i can see your ' true colours'.. explanation time: go ask miss solartri to sing to you.. haha..

personal feeling... omg.. today mood is still ok.. but during recess.. when i saw that girl.. omg.. i simply sick mann.. she really sux to the core.. spoil my whole mood of the day.. is obvious.. when i saw YOU.. my face will automatic de change until very very black.. worst den bao gong.. as you simply sux.. can say you very li hai.. you are the 1st person i hate for so long.. and is those very very very very very very tao yan you de that type.. you pro really pro huh! dotts.. go die la.. wish you could disappear in front of me.. hahaha.. got a sudden emo just now.. bleah.. got illusion of you.. haiz.. bleah.. think too much...

tsurai toki dare ga soba ni ite kurete

dare no kata de namida o nagashita?

yorokobi wa dare to wakeatte

dare to te o toriatte kita?

omoidashite iru yo

2007-06-27T21:24:00.000+08:00

today got training.. kinda sux mann.. during training.. the word "bitch" is flying here and there.. hahaha.. funny sia.. sometime i really felt sux mann.. no one understand.. they will not understand those feeling when something you had put in lots of effort.. HAHAHA.. who will understand mann.. ya true.. is i put myself into it.. i willing to do all this for the girls.. now tell me.. tham wana close down us.. WTF is going on mann.. nan bei chi bye.. i waste my time for those stupid training.. and watching the girls doing their slacking training.. what can i do mann.. i'm neither a coach nor a teacher please.. what can i do.. i thing i had give in as much as i could liao can.. nan bei.. the stupid coach hack care the girls.. we try our best to teach them.. now tell us wanna close down.. ya.. my effort all gone.. ya.. so.. no one cares.. fine lor.. all thanks to myself.. being so dumb.. ya.. since no one care.. no cares about Basketball just end like that.. fine lor.. why i care so much.. what for i do so much.. fuck sia.. chi bye.. stupid coach.. do nothing.. end up talk crap in front of tham.. WTF you want.. helping the girls to all this i get nothing.. get scolding from you this fucking idiot coach.. since you so pro you do yourself la.. chi bye.. i tell you i'm enough of all this.. doing all this make me and bud worst nia.. i think i wanna wash my hands off liao.. closing liao right.. go ahead lor.. i don't want to waste any effort, time & MY MONEY!!!!!.. chi bye.. fuck you la.. ass hole.. stupid.. bo lan pa..idiot la.. life sux mann.. do nothig for the team.. still talk so much.. i am enough of all this mann.. go and die la.. waste all my effort.. pulling this team up.. end up no one knows.. and excuse me.. mei gong la.. at least got ku lao k.. nan bei chi bye..

personal feeling.. no personal feeling today la.. fuck up sia.. so irritated.. everyone will only think for themselves.. why they can't spare their thoughts for other people.. damn fuck mann.. chi bye sia.. everyone sux to the core.. especially..33 and 1310.. both of them sux to the core core CORE AR!!!.. fucking ass hole.. ARGH!!!!!!!

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao

kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to

anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii

2007-06-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

zzz.. first day of school.. bad start.. did nt do physic.. sort of kana detention...stay back till 4.. dn say le.. today in bio lesson.. fell asleep when miss chu play the song 'k sara sara'.. in english lesson.. emo.. don't know why i got a sudden emo.. zzz.. the you again.. i really want to forget mann.. but don't why.. you are just so loveable.. what should i do mann.. emo.. sad.. T.T

personal feeling.. my day was quite sian.. ever since u left.. my world sux.. so empty.. just can't fill up by other things.. can feel that.. my heart is bleeding through a hole.. is so hollow mann.. bleed for so long le.. will die le mann..

Kimi o aishita hibi wa boku no saigo no kiseki

Daremo ga mina hitokoishiku naru kisetsu ga

Kotoshi mo mata atatakasa to tsumetasa o

Tsurete yatte kita

Osana sugita bokura ga mada nani mo shirazu

Waraiatte shigamitsuite aruite ita hi o

Omoidasu

Oshiyoseru konna itami ni

Donna iiwake o sureba ii

2007-06-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday got my hair cut.. it look quite funny.. kor kor say is like that, as i need to grow long.. hurhur..sian ar.. today chiong all my homework.. still have some undone.. zzz... kinda hack care.. still got to the proposal for th toilet thingy.. and i simply got no idea how to do.. k stop here..

personal feelings.. nowadays so down mann.. first is holidays going end.. next is the past one month.. last is this saturday.. don't know.. humans is so sick mann.. so many feelings.. Oh.. this make me sick mann.. but i really can't forget the past.. OMG.. so sick mann.. I CAN'T FORGET YOU AR!!!!!... so confuse mann.. emo.. emo ar!!

Itsuka kitto yurusaresu to shinji nagara

Jikan ga tada sugite ku no o matsu no wa

Oroka sugiru no kana

* Afureru omoi dakishimeru

Koborete shimawanai you ni

Shiroi yuki ni futari no te ga todoku sono hi made

Kimi o aishite ru no wa boku no saigo no yuuki

2007-06-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

sian.. today go training.. quite sian mann.. and the coach like got menopause like that.. siao de la.. from morning scold scold till the end of training.. still pull those guys ear.. heard from ks tt.. he still beat them.. WTH la.. siao de la..but today i did show attitude to the girls.. so sorry about it.. but sorry again.. i cannot be too lack to you all le.. bare with it k.. we will be quite firm will you all.. bare wth it.. all this is just a ' show ' to the coach.. everything will move on smoothly de.. after all competition everything will back to normal.. but u all stil have to train hard k.. jia you.. and you must be independent.. we will not always be with you all de.. another apology to you all.. and jia you for west zone.. kembate ne!!!
next.. i s my own opinion for today training.. OMG the coach is really siao mann.. so damn de tu lan.. fuck mann.. he think what.. all players is his dogs ar.. you all did not see what he did to the guys.. ya.. we are not pro.. but so .. we still humans right.. your treatment to everyone is sux mann.. (everthough you still sux for other training..).. please la.. ya TSS de basketball is sux.. we had not made into 2nd rounds for years.. so.. i admit the girls are slack.. but the boys are not ar.. but your treatment to them is so damn the bad la.. maybe other days also.. i maybe not around.. but they are still humans k.. another thing is.. i had already do what i should do.. i'm just a player, still a learner, i'm not a coach thus, i did not gone through any coaches training.. so what i should do for the girls i had already did my best.. please.. everyone had their own limit.. you know my temper.. don't push me too hard.. when it reaches my limit.. you can take good care of the girls by yourself.. i say it.. i mean it..

personal feelings.. emo periods coming back.. things is difficult to predict.. you and i had our own future.. waiting? i'm not sure.. 1month gone.. will thing change in future??.. yes it will sure will.. but no one knows what will happen.. will we still meet each other in future.. no one will know..

sonna michi no tochuu genjitsu kara nigeta
arayuru itami kara mo nigeta
ima wa konna dakedo
itsuka risou doori no
jibun ni naru no dakara to

2007-06-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

TIRE!!! just came back from SC camp.. ya.. quite fun.. yup.. and i am the best camper for 07.. haha.. 1st time sia.. haha.. and my group is the best group too.. haha.. 1st time be ass leader got good start le.. haha.. my group name is hook-up.. haha.. we really hook everything up.. 1st time so high.. k le.. got time than post more.. gonna chio my homework.. DIE!!!

personal feeling.. everytime i listen to ayumi hamasaki's dearest.. i will start thinking of you again.. we had nt been seeing each other for about one months.. sometimes i still can see you in my dreams.. yesterday i got camp fire.. when the fire goes off.. don't know why i am staring at it.. all of the sudden you just came past my mind.. getting emo.. but is camp.. so i did nt really show out.. haiz.. how long would i need to forget you.. but i wish i will not forget you.. as you are so loveable..

Ah itsu ka eien no

nemuri ni tsuku hi made

dou ka sono egao ga

taema naku aru yo ni

Ah deatta ano koro wa

subete ga bukiyou de

toomawari shita kedo

tadori tsuita n da ne

2007-06-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

today.. go school.. est let us watch.. SPIDER LILIES.. omg.. is quite nice.. but i don't think that need to be rank at R21.. as there is no obseen parts.. everything are quite normal.. feeling quite high after watching.. but i got feeling or sadness.. when i recall the shows.. don't know why i felt sad.. and got emo again.. haiz.. i don't mind watching it again.. as i still don't get the theme of the show.. can say that.. i don't understand it at all.. yup.. haiz.. jus now go out wif mel, nath, kishon and that shawn.. we watch fantastic 4.. ya it is quite nice.. everything was quite fun.. actually is ok la.. yup.. den i go ah ma house..

personal feelings.. really.. nowadays getting emo again.. keep thinking of the past. i don't know mann.. the more i listen to ayu's music.. the more i miss u.. we had not been seeing each others for months.. ARGH!!!.. i don't know.. everything just happen too fast.. i wish that i could never say good-bye to you.. and always stay by your side.. but is too late.. you had left.. left to the far far away.. haiz...

Saigo ni kimi ga hohoende

Massugu ni sashidashita mono wa

Tada amarini kirei sugite

Koraekirezu namida afureta

i find difficulty in breathing..

ever seen you leave me..